OSCE CLINICAL

Yess!!!! Yesssssss!!!!
The questions are ABO compatibility, Ulnar Nerve Examination, History Taking of Hyperthyroidism.
I get a nice patient and nice doctors~~~~
Hahahaaa!!!!
By the way...
I still care of him.
The first day, saw him waiting outside the main hall, he was talking to his friends...
While I not dare to look at him much...
I was sitting the last row of first line, while he was at the first row of third or forth line.
I was concentrating at my exam, and when the time's up, I looked at him, smiling to his friends.
He wont look at me like last time anymore...

Today, I went to the quarantine hall, I did not see him cause I was so nervous.
After I filled up my attendance, I saw him sitting right in front of the first row, he was talking to his friend.
I waved to his friend, Joe, and I totally ignored him...
I knew it is obvious, but what to do, I still do not know to face him, how I should stand when I face him...
Then I looked at him from far...
He was happily talking to his friends, not like me, still stress with exam.
Then I went to the wad.

After the exam, we were talking in quarantine room.
I waited for his coming, and half an anhour after that, he appeared, with happy face.
I high '10' with Cindy and later I saw him high '5' with all his friends...
Then he stood at the place that I can easily see him, maybe because my seat facing the tv and they were watching Olympic.
He kept appear around my sight, and I just looked him while I can, who asked him to appear in front my eyes!!!

Then I just ignored him and went far far from him, and we got out of quarantine room.
I saw him was far away from the queue and do not know how he escaped from the crowd so fast and came out after us so soon.
And he walked behind us, he went to Nurani, he talked about the ethnic grade behind of me, asking his friends what grade they get...
And I do not want to pay attention to that.
I need to pretend that I do not care, no intention to get close to him, no intention to know his things, no intention even to be nice or be his friend.

Because, so many people know my secret and no people think that he will reciprocal like what I feel to him, and they all advise me to stay away from him, do not make myself hurt, to get less concern of him, so that I can withdraw easily.

Yes, I know it.
Cause I have more feeling of sadness instead of in love now.
Yet, the in love feeling hidden in deep inside me, when he smiles, when he talks to me, when he looks at me, the sadness gone, and the sweet feelings reappear..

I am grate that I have more stable emotion now, although I am still panic during exam, and I over my doubt to myself recently, I over my hatred to myself recently.

I can handle myself well now.

At least, I tried before and I now can keep them as sweet memories.