Stranger

You are right that you did not find me.
Lol~

I pretend as we never know each other before.

I miss you, but when I see you, you are with her.

I see you, I think of you both, heart-aching.

I rather not to see you at all.

Heartache....

Still

I am still thinking of him, I miss him.
谁会让你偶尔想要拥他在怀中。。

I just want someone to hold when I am in need.
And I gave up to find the someone.

I suffered him so much in previous life that I need to suffer from this so much this life?

Enough, I am so tired of these things already.
Can I please just forget about these nonsense?

Met for lunch

I was going for lunch with posting-mate, and I dis not know he was behind.
When I noticed, he was smiling to me, like he was excited to see me.
He just acted like normal, like he misses me a lot.
Although we were not talking, he was responding to my words, like always.
He leaved us when sitting and he came back, and there was no more seat for him.
My legs were shaking because it was the first time I was so near to him, talk to him and see him.
I will overcome it soon.

Remember

I just remember why I like him from the start.
It was just because I need a hug when I need comfort and he was the guy who was nearest to me.


I have this feeling today. I feel that I am lost in my academic and I need a hug to comfort me.
I felt I am drowning and I need someone to hold me up.

That's why I had that dream that night...

亲爱的他

昨天勤劳的去医院一天后，Cindy突然邀我去运动，当然就一口答应。
要到达是遇见Semi,跟他聊了一下，他又吸烟了 >.<
真心希望他戒掉，况且他还有哮喘呢！

体力不及他们，一个人走去户外健身，突然有感觉，转头一看，是他。
他在小型足球场内正在热身，隔着篱笆，在我后面走着。
我当做见不到他，也不确定是不是他。
虽然，我在经过体育场时就傻傻的期待他的出现。
直觉他会出来运动，为过几天的训练做准备。
他一直绕着小足球场热身训练，我则尽量避免自己看见他。
幸好有了三宝，我再也没有做出超过的事来引他注意。
可是，我还是喜欢他吗？
为什么我会不由自主的望向他两次呢？
为什么到会去的时候，我还回头望？
看见他在远处慢跑着跟着我们回宿舍去。
他是故意离我们好有一段距离的吗？

他知道吧？
我远离他了。
一个月半来，看了他一次的背影，和这次见到他运动，都没打过招呼。
伤害太深，所以连诉苦的力气都没有。
因为太刺进我的心了。
连心痛都灭了，因为心死了。
看着他，只剩下满满的遗憾，连朋友都不是了。
是我选择的，是我不再将热脸贴在冷屁股上。
一路来都是这样，他并不会觉得怎样。

已经没有心情去面对这样的人，他并不是我想要的那种人。
怎么做，都只是无谓。

再见了，亲爱的。

睡前与梦

昨天有话题聊到恋情，钟光明，加上睡前又跟番石榴辩论了一通，还有看见别人的状态有酒类，所以发了一个跟这些有关系的梦。

话说，不懂我怎么去一个酒吧，不是我想去玩的那种，遇了一个和我不是很对头的男人，说话不对盘。他也是其中管理酒吧的人，是黑道人士。然后不知怎的，我很无助，徘徊在那酒吧附近，他不懂怎么收到消息，在外头见到远处的我，走近，我看见他温柔的眼光，奋不顾身扑了上去，他没有反抗，任由我环住他的颈项，寻求安全感。他瘦瘦高高，跟钟光明差不多，也是远看很帅，近看还好，可是当然梦里的他是比钟光明好看的多。抱着他好安心。很久没有这种感觉了。好像在梦里我不是这么矮，这么副面孔，长发飘逸，是美女，所以应该不是我。那男人有想进一步的亲密，我在梦里也是寻求心灵上的相助相扶，所以告诉他，我想要很清静的关系。之后就忘了，可我知道这男人除了是黑社会，好像蛮能理解人的，哈哈！

在梦里我可是对他的体贴很感动，虽然他得逞后露出男人本性，不过也不知道后来他觉不觉得我的要求太过分，不要当情人才好？

Hmmmmm......

可能我喜欢的男人就是梦里的那个男人，不过我忘了他的脸，不是我见过任何人的脸。。。

攀缘

I clicked on his name and viewed his profile, and luckily I did not have a feeling to contact him.
While I failed to make Jambu and my friends to understand me, and I am no longer care of it.