Read about defense mechanism and all can be related to the tension between me and him.
I dreamt of him by the way.
This morning, I thought he was coming back to school, I think I was just too miss him, hahaha!!!
The urge to see him in the campus.
It is just 26 days, 18 days more, and I might can see him in PBL.
Identification- I learned to go jogging, and exercise and diet, because he cares of his physical appearance so much.
Idealization- I think he is the most physically prefect guy in this world, lol~ *Even though some of his face features and his body proportion not so nice~*
Rationalization- I cheated myself and others, that I like him only like an idol, nothing else.
Denial- Even he does not like me, but I just pretend that I do not know.
Undoing- After I told him the story, and asked him to forget about it, acting nothing happened before.
Dissociation- He pretend that I never be friend with him and acted like a stranger with me.
Regression- I acted like I am innocent and I did not tell him anything that makes him feel weird.
Repression- I hided my sadness but when I saw couples and quotes in facebook, I think of him.
Projection- I think that he is the one who treated me bad.
Displacement- I showed my anger to Lyn and she once was the victim.
Isolation- He avoided me for half year because he can not face me.
Introjection- I learnt how he walked, how he responded if he was in a situation, how he talked, his quotes.
Suppression- He forgot what had happened 1 year ago and pretends that he does not care.
Reaction formation- To prevent I fall for him and again get sad, I encouraged my friend to get him
Conversion- When I heard interaction between them, I went to the toilet, pretending urge, so that I will not hear it.
Sublimation- He hopes that I can change to be a hardworking and responsible medical students.
Humor- And now when I tell about my relation with him, only with jokes and craziness, to prevent embarrassment.
Compensation- I chatted with another guy, cooked for another guy, flirted with another guy, to reduce the intensity of missing him.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Isolation
As long as I get far away from him for a period of time, I can fade my feeling to him, lol~~
Now, I am quite calm, quite comfortable with myself.
I am more to myself, and I like it.
Now, I am quite calm, quite comfortable with myself.
I am more to myself, and I like it.
Friday, January 25, 2013
Share
Do you know I shared so many videos and pictures with quotes last year?
Those were the words I felt of you.
If you were following me then you definitely will approach me, but you did not.
Now, I shared things, without thinking of anyone, but the one who follows me, came and asked me about my post/videos/quotes.
It made me think of you, who never pay attention to me, and I feel that I am pathetic.
Those were the words I felt of you.
If you were following me then you definitely will approach me, but you did not.
Now, I shared things, without thinking of anyone, but the one who follows me, came and asked me about my post/videos/quotes.
It made me think of you, who never pay attention to me, and I feel that I am pathetic.
2 weekly?
Ok, maybe I am waiting for him.
He just thought of me once fortnight is it???
Can he think of me more more more??
Heard from Lyn that he is very sensitive in touching girl, generally, her, specifically.
He scared to give bad image to her??
When they went to buffet, they took photos together, and she helped to press the phone while he was holding the camera.
He avoided her and asked why she touched him.
OK, I only teach you this here, CKM.
If you like the girl, it is nevermind to touch her if you think she might like you too ok???
I know maybe you want to act to show you are gentlemen, but she likes you, she might think you do not like her touch ma!!
So you can pretend that it is normal to touch each other la... T.T
Of course your actions are cute in my view, too cute too cute!!!
You did it right and entertained me when she told me that.
So cute so cute~~~
If you did it to all girls then I will be very very very happy la~~ Hahaha~~
He just thought of me once fortnight is it???
Can he think of me more more more??
Heard from Lyn that he is very sensitive in touching girl, generally, her, specifically.
He scared to give bad image to her??
When they went to buffet, they took photos together, and she helped to press the phone while he was holding the camera.
He avoided her and asked why she touched him.
OK, I only teach you this here, CKM.
If you like the girl, it is nevermind to touch her if you think she might like you too ok???
I know maybe you want to act to show you are gentlemen, but she likes you, she might think you do not like her touch ma!!
So you can pretend that it is normal to touch each other la... T.T
Of course your actions are cute in my view, too cute too cute!!!
You did it right and entertained me when she told me that.
So cute so cute~~~
If you did it to all girls then I will be very very very happy la~~ Hahaha~~
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Cheat-able
Lol, Ah Yik said my hair get longer and longer, and I told him because people asked me to keep.
Flirting with him to make him happy.
While I asked CKM why not sleep at late night, he just asked me to sleep, then I really went sleep.
I was planning to sleep, just playing with him that I followed his words.
This two guys really cute. Hahahaaaaa!
Hope I can maintain this kind of feeling toward both of them, so that I will not get hurt anymore, lol~
By the way, met Ah Yik 2 times yesterday and met him with Tun Chen today in the lift.
Tun Chen is cute, he scolded Ah Yik when he looked at me in the lift, then TC greeted me after we all walked out of the lift, lol~~~
SO cute!!!!!
Flirting with him to make him happy.
While I asked CKM why not sleep at late night, he just asked me to sleep, then I really went sleep.
I was planning to sleep, just playing with him that I followed his words.
This two guys really cute. Hahahaaaaa!
Hope I can maintain this kind of feeling toward both of them, so that I will not get hurt anymore, lol~
By the way, met Ah Yik 2 times yesterday and met him with Tun Chen today in the lift.
Tun Chen is cute, he scolded Ah Yik when he looked at me in the lift, then TC greeted me after we all walked out of the lift, lol~~~
SO cute!!!!!
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Bipolar
Summary: I slept from 3am to 630am, and I went to temple, came back, went to take back my money, and I kept contact Cindy so that I know every action of her, then I went celebration with her. The next day, I went to AMSA activity, and I am very tired and so I did not feel like joining the trip to our foster family and I get guilt and uncomfortable with what Lyn and Cindy to me.
Complete story:
Thursday, I went out after class for lunch, so I decided to buy the ingredient to cook for the next day.
I forgot what I did afterward, probably wasting time?
While the others get into village to distribute the towels.
Then went to cook glutinous balls and celebrated JY birthday until 1130pm, while half an hour later went to celebrate Cindy's birthday, and we chatted until 2am.
Then I cooked until 3am and sleep for 3 and half hours.
We departed at 7am to temple, I did not do much in temple, I even slept there, and we came back at 3pm.
Half an hour later, I went out to KB mall to get back my refund for not getting Samsung Corby II.
When I reached hostel it was 5pm, and rest and bathed, it was 6pm.
I went to Cindy's room since I was given a task to make her bath, or get information from her to exclude any factor that will interrupt our plan.
So later I followed any changes that happened and made plan worked.
And I started to feel neglected.
I do not feel comfortable with friends who close to me all the time.
Maybe people said I asked for it.
Because of my craziness, and my disorganization.
People who first know me, they will feel that I am cute or special, but after some time, they just change their views, and disrespect me?? and I feel I was being dumped, I was not being cherished.
Maybe I took too serious in their jokes...
And suddenly the image of CKM appeared.
When I said I am a boy, a guy, he scolded me and threatened me to kick me out of his car if I continue saying that.
Maybe I am searching for care by this method...
And I just remembered why I told him about my feeling so early.
Finally, I can stop blaming myself of my impatient in a relationship.
I wanted to develop a relationship slowly, but I knew Lyn was falling for him too at the same time, and I did not want any complicated situation to happen since I liked him very much that time.
I tried my luck.
But I failed.
And things happened after 1 year, she finally told me before this new year, and I still feel sad, luckily I can definitely tell that it is lesser harm than if she is telling me 2011.
Now that I understand, people gave up to have a relationship with their loved one, instead they maintain a friendship who they both fall for the same person, it is real.
I asked him before she told me, I tried my best, and I got the answer.
Now that she told me, and from the answer and for friendship, I should know what should I do.
For any change in the future, I can not betray my friend, and have to stop thinking of friend's boyfriend.
That is a betrayal in friendship and and disgrace as a girl.
What I want to tell CKM: "In front of you, I am just a little girl, probably deaf and mute, cannot tell what I feel what I know, and cannot understand what you tell what you mean. I am a manly girl, who is not feminine, not pretty, not sexy. Even my bad personalities and lack of responsibilities that you can see through, embarrass me. I am a bored, plain, fun-less girl you cant find any joy from. But this is the way I am. And sorry that I am not the kind of girl you like."
What I want to tell Lyn: "You are pretty, you have nice body shape without work on it. These are what I hope I have. You have a great mind, you have right sense, you do things perfectly but I do not. I kind of hope that I have the courage to speak out what I actually want, and you showed me it is easy. Maybe I am a Oriental-minded girl and you are a western-culture girl. Or maybe you are too independent and afraid to be hurt, so I get hurt. Since the day you not believe me as a friend who care you more than myself, that you never think that I will think from your aspect instead just to harm or hurt or prank you. That you are independent and do not need my help to get back your phone, and I seem like a busy body who helped you to deliver your phone. And I got scolded by your brother, I did not receive any apologize from you, instead you were telling me that that is all the others' fault. And I do think that I put too much expectations on you that I knew I will not get it from you forever, I forgot so mean it is my fault. So you are independent girl who can handle everything by yourself, and when you do not ask for it, I will assume that you do not need my help. While I might be jealous of you because of him. I always think that you are adorable and I always hope for the best for you. He is nice and compatible with you. I should wish you both the best. But I am hurt, I need time. I am a spoiled child, and I might knew it long time ago but after you told me, and I just faced it and I think I should change. Or maybe I am too selfish, I just think of myself, I need a change, I need to change. I am too attach to someone and when I am detached, I feel lonely. I feel uncomfortable to be with you for this stage, maybe I should sort all "
What I want to tell Cindy: "I am sorry that I am too attach to you, sometimes I might disturb your study time cause no one else I feel free to disturb to in this hostel. I did feel down by Lyn and Jesslyn yesterday, I was kind of being humiliated cause I somehow feel uncomfortable with the teases. But when you hugged me and told us you are happy, I can feel my heart relief and free from the dullness and the worthlessness gone immediately. I do not know how I can gain back this feeling from Lyn, and I hope I can. Please tell me, how?"
What I want to tell ORL: "I kind of think that you do not like me. I do not know why but you always give me the negative auras although you did not tell anything, I can feeling it. Maybe I am too weird to tolerate. And I do think only me get this treatment from you, and made me feel that I am too difficult to tolerate to, and I am wondering that, am I that bad? The whole gang is teasing me, that if there is any bully in the room, you are the victim. Maybe yes physically, but it is the opposite mentally. I being tortured when you looked at me as if I am weirdo, I did something wrong, and I always do things wrong. I loss confidence with you, and I loss my confidence with you all. "
Complete story:
Thursday, I went out after class for lunch, so I decided to buy the ingredient to cook for the next day.
I forgot what I did afterward, probably wasting time?
While the others get into village to distribute the towels.
Then went to cook glutinous balls and celebrated JY birthday until 1130pm, while half an hour later went to celebrate Cindy's birthday, and we chatted until 2am.
Then I cooked until 3am and sleep for 3 and half hours.
We departed at 7am to temple, I did not do much in temple, I even slept there, and we came back at 3pm.
Half an hour later, I went out to KB mall to get back my refund for not getting Samsung Corby II.
When I reached hostel it was 5pm, and rest and bathed, it was 6pm.
I went to Cindy's room since I was given a task to make her bath, or get information from her to exclude any factor that will interrupt our plan.
So later I followed any changes that happened and made plan worked.
And I started to feel neglected.
I do not feel comfortable with friends who close to me all the time.
Maybe people said I asked for it.
Because of my craziness, and my disorganization.
People who first know me, they will feel that I am cute or special, but after some time, they just change their views, and disrespect me?? and I feel I was being dumped, I was not being cherished.
Maybe I took too serious in their jokes...
And suddenly the image of CKM appeared.
When I said I am a boy, a guy, he scolded me and threatened me to kick me out of his car if I continue saying that.
Maybe I am searching for care by this method...
And I just remembered why I told him about my feeling so early.
Finally, I can stop blaming myself of my impatient in a relationship.
I wanted to develop a relationship slowly, but I knew Lyn was falling for him too at the same time, and I did not want any complicated situation to happen since I liked him very much that time.
I tried my luck.
But I failed.
And things happened after 1 year, she finally told me before this new year, and I still feel sad, luckily I can definitely tell that it is lesser harm than if she is telling me 2011.
Now that I understand, people gave up to have a relationship with their loved one, instead they maintain a friendship who they both fall for the same person, it is real.
I asked him before she told me, I tried my best, and I got the answer.
Now that she told me, and from the answer and for friendship, I should know what should I do.
For any change in the future, I can not betray my friend, and have to stop thinking of friend's boyfriend.
That is a betrayal in friendship and and disgrace as a girl.
What I want to tell CKM: "In front of you, I am just a little girl, probably deaf and mute, cannot tell what I feel what I know, and cannot understand what you tell what you mean. I am a manly girl, who is not feminine, not pretty, not sexy. Even my bad personalities and lack of responsibilities that you can see through, embarrass me. I am a bored, plain, fun-less girl you cant find any joy from. But this is the way I am. And sorry that I am not the kind of girl you like."
What I want to tell Lyn: "You are pretty, you have nice body shape without work on it. These are what I hope I have. You have a great mind, you have right sense, you do things perfectly but I do not. I kind of hope that I have the courage to speak out what I actually want, and you showed me it is easy. Maybe I am a Oriental-minded girl and you are a western-culture girl. Or maybe you are too independent and afraid to be hurt, so I get hurt. Since the day you not believe me as a friend who care you more than myself, that you never think that I will think from your aspect instead just to harm or hurt or prank you. That you are independent and do not need my help to get back your phone, and I seem like a busy body who helped you to deliver your phone. And I got scolded by your brother, I did not receive any apologize from you, instead you were telling me that that is all the others' fault. And I do think that I put too much expectations on you that I knew I will not get it from you forever, I forgot so mean it is my fault. So you are independent girl who can handle everything by yourself, and when you do not ask for it, I will assume that you do not need my help. While I might be jealous of you because of him. I always think that you are adorable and I always hope for the best for you. He is nice and compatible with you. I should wish you both the best. But I am hurt, I need time. I am a spoiled child, and I might knew it long time ago but after you told me, and I just faced it and I think I should change. Or maybe I am too selfish, I just think of myself, I need a change, I need to change. I am too attach to someone and when I am detached, I feel lonely. I feel uncomfortable to be with you for this stage, maybe I should sort all "
What I want to tell Cindy: "I am sorry that I am too attach to you, sometimes I might disturb your study time cause no one else I feel free to disturb to in this hostel. I did feel down by Lyn and Jesslyn yesterday, I was kind of being humiliated cause I somehow feel uncomfortable with the teases. But when you hugged me and told us you are happy, I can feel my heart relief and free from the dullness and the worthlessness gone immediately. I do not know how I can gain back this feeling from Lyn, and I hope I can. Please tell me, how?"
What I want to tell ORL: "I kind of think that you do not like me. I do not know why but you always give me the negative auras although you did not tell anything, I can feeling it. Maybe I am too weird to tolerate. And I do think only me get this treatment from you, and made me feel that I am too difficult to tolerate to, and I am wondering that, am I that bad? The whole gang is teasing me, that if there is any bully in the room, you are the victim. Maybe yes physically, but it is the opposite mentally. I being tortured when you looked at me as if I am weirdo, I did something wrong, and I always do things wrong. I loss confidence with you, and I loss my confidence with you all. "
Friday, January 18, 2013
oh oh, I'm in trouble
I hope it's my misinterpret.
If it is real, then I might lost 2 friends in 1 time.
One that has trust on me, and another I have trust on her.
But if it is real, maybe I paid for it to learn how to keep secrets even though you are in misery.
If it is not real, then I have to learn to stop thinking that the one I put my trust on, is reliable.
Lol~~
No such kind of friend in this world.
And if it is real, it means that it is too creepy that I told in the afternoon, people can spread in the evening.
Lol~~
I am too naive.
If it is real, then I might lost 2 friends in 1 time.
One that has trust on me, and another I have trust on her.
But if it is real, maybe I paid for it to learn how to keep secrets even though you are in misery.
If it is not real, then I have to learn to stop thinking that the one I put my trust on, is reliable.
Lol~~
No such kind of friend in this world.
And if it is real, it means that it is too creepy that I told in the afternoon, people can spread in the evening.
Lol~~
I am too naive.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Dreamt weird
Too much information recently made me dreamt something weird.
I was single.
I met someone nice.
He tried to talk in Taiwanese assent but I can hear that he tried so hard until it is not natural.
He treated me nice and he gave me everything he owned.
Later I met David Tao, and he is much more attractive.
The first guy just wanted to have pure love with me, he asked me to stay with him.
But I rejected him, meanwhile I am staying with David Tao already.
Then he asked me, he does not even ask me to love back, why I just accept the another one who does not treat me as good as him.
And I speechless.
Then he leaved me, with DT.
I was regret, cause I treated him like a brother.
I rely on him, I need him.
But he leaved.
With his friend stayed beside me, and actually he was a lyric writer.
The friend is Lim Xi, lol~~
I was a psychotic worker in a company.
I was being prank in my office after I went back from toilet.
They always prank me as they like to bully a psychotic person and look to her reactions.
While the girl acted calm and went back to work.
And she realised she was being send to have outstation missions.
She asked her college/friend, and her friend said feel sorry for it, and she pointed out her college was the one sent her to outstation.
She felt sad and speechless.
So she went to the place.
She met her lover who had married on the way there.
Probably her old boss or present boss, she knows his wife but she still be together with him.
I felt frustrated, and we planned our vacation since the workload actually very less.
*It is a continuation of previous dream*
I was single.
I met someone nice.
He tried to talk in Taiwanese assent but I can hear that he tried so hard until it is not natural.
He treated me nice and he gave me everything he owned.
Later I met David Tao, and he is much more attractive.
The first guy just wanted to have pure love with me, he asked me to stay with him.
But I rejected him, meanwhile I am staying with David Tao already.
Then he asked me, he does not even ask me to love back, why I just accept the another one who does not treat me as good as him.
And I speechless.
Then he leaved me, with DT.
I was regret, cause I treated him like a brother.
I rely on him, I need him.
But he leaved.
With his friend stayed beside me, and actually he was a lyric writer.
The friend is Lim Xi, lol~~
I was a psychotic worker in a company.
I was being prank in my office after I went back from toilet.
They always prank me as they like to bully a psychotic person and look to her reactions.
While the girl acted calm and went back to work.
And she realised she was being send to have outstation missions.
She asked her college/friend, and her friend said feel sorry for it, and she pointed out her college was the one sent her to outstation.
She felt sad and speechless.
So she went to the place.
She met her lover who had married on the way there.
Probably her old boss or present boss, she knows his wife but she still be together with him.
I felt frustrated, and we planned our vacation since the workload actually very less.
*It is a continuation of previous dream*
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Deep comfortable voice
His voice, comforts me.
His voice is deep and attractive.
He does not want to record his voice for me.
His voice is deep and attractive.
He does not want to record his voice for me.
Change
I changed my profile picture, then my name, then my cover photo, and if can I want to hide my photos.
I deleted the conversation with him.
I decided.
Maybe it takes time to over it, but I know it will.
Maybe just need 4 months, after Pro and I will be free from academic and him.
And I plan to change hair style actually, but need wait till February.
I deleted the conversation with him.
I decided.
Maybe it takes time to over it, but I know it will.
Maybe just need 4 months, after Pro and I will be free from academic and him.
And I plan to change hair style actually, but need wait till February.
Sarangheyo
When I hear to this song now, I feel sad.
I did not sing this song in 6 hours of karaoke.
I feel heartache.
I sang "What makes you beautiful" like, shouting??
This is a song that resembles you and Lyn.
I sang "Back at one", as this is your love song with Lyn
I sang "I dont wanna miss a thing" cause I miss you.
I sang "The scientist", I sang "With or without you", I sang "Chasing cars", I sang "How deep is your love"...
All those songs I sang, not as nice as how you sang them.
Just, I might have no chance to hear it anymore.
Your voice, owned by her now.
I did not sing this song in 6 hours of karaoke.
I feel heartache.
I sang "What makes you beautiful" like, shouting??
This is a song that resembles you and Lyn.
I sang "Back at one", as this is your love song with Lyn
I sang "I dont wanna miss a thing" cause I miss you.
I sang "The scientist", I sang "With or without you", I sang "Chasing cars", I sang "How deep is your love"...
All those songs I sang, not as nice as how you sang them.
Just, I might have no chance to hear it anymore.
Your voice, owned by her now.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Exam Coming!!!
Stress for a few months already still can not change my behaviors and attitudes.
Even Ming Ming asked me to study.
My friends who worried me but can not help me.
I might be drown in these flows...
Even Ming Ming asked me to study.
My friends who worried me but can not help me.
I might be drown in these flows...
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Place
There is a place, called friend.
When I was chatting with him, his online status, on and off, you will never know if he will reply you after you passed him a message.
When he was busy chatting with another one, his line seem stable and steady, always green.
I am the person to chat with when he is bored.
I am the last to find.
When I was chatting with him, his online status, on and off, you will never know if he will reply you after you passed him a message.
When he was busy chatting with another one, his line seem stable and steady, always green.
I am the person to chat with when he is bored.
I am the last to find.
Change
Everyone knows I afraid to make a change...
Either to study harder, or quit.
No way for me to quit, I can only study harder.
T.T
Still??
This bothered you for 4 years and you still need another person to tell you that?
Please la, be mature la...
Either to study harder, or quit.
No way for me to quit, I can only study harder.
T.T
Still??
This bothered you for 4 years and you still need another person to tell you that?
Please la, be mature la...
Monday, January 7, 2013
Blessing
Hope he gets my blessing for his operation and his health.
I made nearly 2 hours chanting for him, may the merits transfer to him.
Since I did not know when his surgery been carried out, I just assumed it was in the morning, nearly 9am to 1030am...
I did morning chanting, Homage to Phramongkolthepmuni for more than 1 hour and Metta Chanting.
I am not so hardworking believer, but I did this for him...
Just, wish he felt blessed and safe even he does not know anything.
I made nearly 2 hours chanting for him, may the merits transfer to him.
Since I did not know when his surgery been carried out, I just assumed it was in the morning, nearly 9am to 1030am...
I did morning chanting, Homage to Phramongkolthepmuni for more than 1 hour and Metta Chanting.
I am not so hardworking believer, but I did this for him...
Just, wish he felt blessed and safe even he does not know anything.
Dreamt
I dreamt I was doing some religious ritual for Christmas, and I was with Cindy and Lyn, but Wanchyn wanted to come and find me, meanwhile Raiiny with her friends and Jambu wanted to go out with me too.
Maybe I lost contact with him, and he was the person I find whenever I need someone.
We are not the one who we once knew anymore.
Maybe I lost contact with him, and he was the person I find whenever I need someone.
We are not the one who we once knew anymore.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Unworthy sadness
I had sad for 1 whole night, but now I think back, and it did not worth a thing.
I heard they had lunch together.
And I emo for so long, talked with Jerry for whole night, and made people curious about him.
Today I talked with him, and I totally feeling that he is bored and he is lame.
And why did I sad for this guy?
I cooked porridge for Ah Yik who is sick and I do not think he cherished it.
Cause he is just using me as a food producer and leaved me after he got what he wants from me.
I achieved a few motives.
I made people thought I have something with Imran among CFCS and PBL, and I made them curious about the guy talking in phone with me that night, and I made people wondered if I have any chance to be together with a junior.
And I feel bored, and he became a guy that I find when I bored.
Not because I miss him.
I heard they had lunch together.
And I emo for so long, talked with Jerry for whole night, and made people curious about him.
Today I talked with him, and I totally feeling that he is bored and he is lame.
And why did I sad for this guy?
I cooked porridge for Ah Yik who is sick and I do not think he cherished it.
Cause he is just using me as a food producer and leaved me after he got what he wants from me.
I achieved a few motives.
I made people thought I have something with Imran among CFCS and PBL, and I made them curious about the guy talking in phone with me that night, and I made people wondered if I have any chance to be together with a junior.
And I feel bored, and he became a guy that I find when I bored.
Not because I miss him.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
New Year 2013
There he went for celebration.
His friends are excited with alcohol, so either Penang or here, he can always go to places with complicated background.
While he had bachelors gathering in hostel on Christmas Eve.
There is no photo for their Christmas Celebration.
Lol, I hate festivals.
Not hurt
I thought he was in pain and was not attend to the BN.And actually he did.
The only photo I found to prove his attendance.
And he did not go to CN.
But he went WSN.
Hmmmm...
I thought he was in pain, and actually not.
Gentlemen
Since that day I talked about gentlemen things with him, he was showing his gentleness in front me to other girls these days.
He hold door for Amu, he helped to move the table, he waited for Amu to walk with him, he even said out the term "gentlemen" as preventing me did not see, ok, I observed and I can see, do not worry!
And before coming back, he told us he used to puncture his epidural space for something.
I opened the door for him, and he said thank you.
And he talked with Lyn, and yea, he just talked to Lyn, and always talk to Lyn.
He waited for Amu later, but when I turned to see, he walked away already.
Lol, I think later Lyn would chase him and walk with him.
He hold door for Amu, he helped to move the table, he waited for Amu to walk with him, he even said out the term "gentlemen" as preventing me did not see, ok, I observed and I can see, do not worry!
And before coming back, he told us he used to puncture his epidural space for something.
I opened the door for him, and he said thank you.
And he talked with Lyn, and yea, he just talked to Lyn, and always talk to Lyn.
He waited for Amu later, but when I turned to see, he walked away already.
Lol, I think later Lyn would chase him and walk with him.
Ming Ming Jiu
There are colourful candies in the can,
but the smiles sweet no more.
Your happiness, during my absence,
I think I should just stop here.
When seagull no longer in love with the ocean,
it can fly further.
I hear music came from far,
but I just mind to heard about you.
Castles keep secrets for love,
while I keep the memories for you.
You do not like to hold hands,
but why you came and seduce me?
You have tons of thought, I will not reveal them.
Actually she is more attractive,
Maybe she can give you more,
No need to choose anymore,
I will automatic become a friend.
Lol, I do not like this song initially, but it suits my situation now.
How I should act when we are together?
Trio?
I should avoid everything??
Not to appear when they are together?
Obviously, there is no place for me to interrupt, hahahaa~~
They will date.
but the smiles sweet no more.
Your happiness, during my absence,
I think I should just stop here.
When seagull no longer in love with the ocean,
it can fly further.
I hear music came from far,
but I just mind to heard about you.
Castles keep secrets for love,
while I keep the memories for you.
You do not like to hold hands,
but why you came and seduce me?
You have tons of thought, I will not reveal them.
Actually she is more attractive,
Maybe she can give you more,
No need to choose anymore,
I will automatic become a friend.
Lol, I do not like this song initially, but it suits my situation now.
How I should act when we are together?
Trio?
I should avoid everything??
Not to appear when they are together?
Obviously, there is no place for me to interrupt, hahahaa~~
They will date.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
明明就
糖果罐里好多颜色 微笑却不甜了
你的某些快乐 在没有我的时刻
中古世纪的城市里 我想就走到这
海鸥不再眷恋大海 可以飞更远
远方传来风笛 我只在意有你的消息
城堡为爱守着秘密 而我为你守着回忆
明明就 不习惯 牵手
为何却主动把手勾
你的心事太多 我不会戳破
明明就 他比较 温柔
也许他能给你更多
不用决择 我会自动变朋友
你的某些快乐 在没有我的时刻
中古世纪的城市里 我想就走到这
海鸥不再眷恋大海 可以飞更远
远方传来风笛 我只在意有你的消息
城堡为爱守着秘密 而我为你守着回忆
明明就 不习惯 牵手
为何却主动把手勾
你的心事太多 我不会戳破
明明就 他比较 温柔
也许他能给你更多
不用决择 我会自动变朋友
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Chat sounds
I never open the chat sounds before until I started to chat with him.
And I only opened it when I chat with him.
And now I decided to not open chat sounds anymore.
And I planned to delete our conversations but somehow I still can not do it.
It is a good start that I knew about his direction one day before new year and I want to get rid of him in my life.
And I only opened it when I chat with him.
And now I decided to not open chat sounds anymore.
And I planned to delete our conversations but somehow I still can not do it.
It is a good start that I knew about his direction one day before new year and I want to get rid of him in my life.
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