Emptiness

I miss him, but I cant tell him.
I scared if it will happen again.
Regret that I asked him about some lame things.
I do not know what to talk with him anymore.
And Joe...
I should not dig info from him anymore too.

Put down my feeling, and I will be fine.

Lucky person

Ok, I got an easy case in long case, although I nearly ruined it, and I should practice more.
First, the patient is talkative and friendly, the nurse is helpful.
Second the doctors are nice and guided me for whole session~~
Lol~~
At last he asked me to promise him to practice more then he will pass me, hahahahaaaa!!!!

Then I was waiting for him to appear.
I talked to Azri and he was "perasan" and thought that I was pointing to him, lol~~
He had lunch before came to our table. So I spent more than 2 hours with him.
He sat down and told us about his horrible experience about his long case.
We talked and laughed.
Then I told about how lucky I am.
Lol, he teased me that if I got his doctor then I sure cannot bear the stress and cry.
I kept going to toilet.
And at night I got to know that MM asked Lyn in front of him whether she likes him.
He got shy and she did not dare to look at him.
Luckily it happened when I was away.
Or else I should be hurt all time since then.

We saw YC and Wendy were sitting each with a book on their hands, and the scene is really romantic!!
Me and Cindy both agreed that we were like light bulbs with them.
So Cindy did not join them after toilet, and I walked back to my seat, and then I leaved after 5 seconds of silence and pretended I was talking to GX.
Then they also asked if they have something toward each other? Duh~ Obviously...
And I did not wish to be a light bulb.
I saw his eyes, he was hinting me to go back and save him. ()
I refused to help him by ignoring his signal.
Then he looked at me, or I should say stared at me, and I felt uncomfortable, to relieve the tension, I wanted to irritate him by doing Gwiyomi.
How I know that he was following me and did the "1+1" and "4+4"
Then I order for the "6" 1, and he kissed his 6 fingers, hahahaaa!!!
Then I said again again, then he repeated again.
So I taught him, the "5", showing him "love" sign, and he showed me too, hahahaa~~
I requested him to do the whole set, and then I was like being fish by him and went to sit in front him, and I showed GX and MY that he really did that, hahahahaaaa!!
He is good in making girls happy~ Lol~~
He showed the full sets and later he said he wanted to show his own style.
GX asked if he watched Fiyomi, and he said he did not even brave to click it, so YC replied him from far, told that he fainted from the video and regret.
Then I said him "活该", hahahahaaa!!!
We continued to talk about my result previously, and actually he heard for a few times before and everytime he just looked like he was first time hearing it.
Lyn touched his hands tried to put her watch on his wrist.
She was telling that his fingers are feminine.
And we were comparing the fist, and I think I was the brightest light bulb ever.
He needed buffers, lol~

Later he argued with Amutha, and we had good time together.
His mood was good and not fluctuating.
Lol~
I did not chat him.
I overcame my shaking hands already, cause I was calm after meditate for half an hour before meeting him.

Politics

I am not a good resident, cause I am not going back to vote for this GE13.
I know my vote is important, but there is a more important thing to do here...
Our country need a change.
I am not standing any side, but seriously, Malaysian needs something different.

Confession dream

I dreamt of him. First I attended a wedding with my mum I think. 

The wedding was in a boutique.

The arrangement of the dinner is kind of special, hahaha, they served the dishes on the accessories tables and clothes table.
Then the scene switched to politic thingy or robbery thingy, lol~
Second day I went the boutique again for the so called wedding or I think maybe it was a opening ceremony?
I was assigned to another seat which is different from previous day.

Then I was waiting for Zling(we chatted in fb yesterday, make me dreamed of her)
Iki walked in and sat same table with me, and so immediately I longed for CKM's presence, cause the seating was according to friendship.
So later he was coming, I think someone maybe Lyn or maybe Cindy was beside me.
Then he handed me a bottle of chocolate coated almond or some sweets.
Then I hold it in arms and showed that I am very happy and surprised that he gave it only to me.
I opened the bottle and it was not only sweet.
I saw a smaller bottle of 3 in 1 Cadbury chocolate drink.
He wrote a note "If I did not buy for you, how you gonna to live?"
Then there was a questionnaire that filled with answers and explanations, I think I will have to answer it, and he answered it first.
That is meant by he is willing to tell me all about him and he wishes to know more about me too...
I think I was with tears of touch and impressed.
And I forgot the later part, lol~

While in real life, I commented a phrase of lyric 把我们衣服纽扣互扣，那就不用分离 .
This morning, I saw QQ shared Kimberly's song爱你 via youtube, coincidence?

Sad Dream

I dreamt that I chatted with Jambu, and he was not friendly to me.
He still feels the hurts I gave...
And I feel so sorry and sorrow from our conversation...

How am I so weak?
I should not be like this.

Long Case

I start to stress again...
Arrgghhh, why is it so dumb???!!!

So many diseases, so many symptoms!!!

Calm

I do not miss him, just think of him.
There is a different of missing and thinking.
Miss someone is the torturing thoughts associated with sweet, sour and bitter and feel in love.
Think of someone is the wondering thoughts that run when you see something make you remind of him and find out what will he react on that thing.
Yes, I think of him a lot.

What he is doing now?
Arrgghhh...

Affection seeker

I tried to find out more information about him...
And I knew that he talked to Lyn because he wants to get FLM photos from her.
Cindy said why he asked from her, but not his other guy friends?

And Cindy said I tried to get affections from people, this is quite true.
I need to eliminate this crazy thought forever.

Continue borderline

OK, I did good deeds a lot so I got easy questions!!!
We all had last year questions as our questions!!

Muahahahaaaa!!!!

LP popi popi~~

I love them a lot a lot!!!!
Only them can calm me down and make me wise!!

Get out!

I might get it wrong.
Lol~
He does not like me at all.

Hahaha, girls like to make conclusion by only one thing.

Borderline

I said, I came to a borderline of going crazy!
Why am I so fragile, why am I can not withstand just this kind of stress??
When I am stress, I feel want to vomit, I will get diarrhea, I have palpitation, I have insomnia...

When I stress, I need to talk to one person, and I am not the kind who can motivate others.

I can not stand anymore T.T

Oh!!!!!!!

Stress level up up!!!

I hate exam! I hate it!!!
Why so much stuff to study!!!
Human body is so complicated.
As I wish no one in the world will get sick anymore!!!


How I face clinical years??
How I face future patients????

T.T

踏实

没有怎样，我就是爱他。
就算他不会是我的，虽然他不是我的，我就是沉醉在他的温柔。
虽然。。。多温柔，都不全属于我。
或许是事不关己，或许他知道让我念书真的太辛苦了，我那么爱玩。
他说的话，有安定的效果，安抚了我，让我没那么紧张。
也不全是他的功劳，但就那一瞬间，有点解脱。

Sometimes, just to be a friend is all worth it, because sometimes friendship last longer than love.

有時候，做朋友就完全够了，因為友情有時比爱情更長久。

我和他都懂的。

不是他有多好，只是我不想再乱爱一场。

错过了另一个很爱很爱我的男人，是我们相遇的太早了吧？

是因为当初我的强求，让我们提早开始，也提早结束。

认识八年，看着我成长，甚至我爸都没他了解我。

这一次，三个月，两年，四年，八年，十年，十二年。。。
他不需要了解我，我也不束缚他。

可以一起开心，有时像陌生人，可是心里知道，我有他，他有我。
可能吗？
会有这种若有若无的情感关系吗？

我遇过的男人，都不差。

不是没遇过差的，只是他们不值得留在我的回忆里，心里永远鄙视他们。
只要从此以后，遇到的人，都不会是坏人，小人，作奸犯科的人。

身边都是好人，是幸福的。

Saturated

Oh yea, I hope I can pass this exam!!!
If I pass it, then I have less worry during my professional exam...
T.T
I am in highly anxious stage.
Since I do not know much of diseases, and there are so a lot to memorise...
I hate exam!!
Studies for 7 months and exam for 5 big blocks??
The school must be crazy??!!

Well, I miss him, but I did not find him for chat.
This is not point to have intimate relationship if I fail for this exam, and we can not be together.

Oh, stress up!!!

Still into you

Can't count the years on one hand
that we've been together
I need the other one to hold you
Make you feel, make you feel better

It's not a walk in the park
to love each other
But when our fingers interlock,
Can't deny, can't deny you're worth it
'Cause after all this time, I'm still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you

Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time I'm still into you

Recount the night that
I first met your mother
And on the drive back to my house
I told you that, I told you that I loved ya

You felt the weight of the world
fall off your shoulder
And to your favorite song
we sang along to the start of forever
And after all this time, I'm still into you

Some things just, some things just make sense
and one of those is you and I

I'm into you, baby not a day goes by
that I'm not into you

1001th

I wrote about 900 posts about him in 2 years time.
Hahahaa, cause I always make summary between me and him, lol~
And actually we might have nothing at the end.
I do not think after a few years, I still want to recall what I had did now, hahaha~
Cause all those little things are just too minor, lol~~~

I am so passive thinking today because Thban told me this morning that Lyn was chatting with CKM.
While at the same time, Lyn chatted with me too...

And so I felt so in love yesterday, but today I am not.
I just feel bored with childish action of QQ =.=
I kind of feeling impatient with him if he was expecting anything from me.
I still hold my own principles to search a boyfriend, the only exception is Kuan, all the other boys can give way cause everything they do will not beat what he did, lol~

Conclusion is, I just want Kuan, no more~

Lalalalaaa~~~

我真的受伤了

窗外阴天了　音乐低声了　

我的心开始想你了

灯光也暗了　音乐低声了　

口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了　人是无聊了　

我的心开始想你了

电话响起了　你要说话了　

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了　

是你变了　是你变了

灯光熄灭了　音乐静止了　

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了　人是不快乐　

我的心真的受伤了

电话响起了　你要说话了　

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了　

是你变了　是你变了

灯光熄灭了　音乐静止了　

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了　人是不快乐　

我的心真的受伤了

我的心真的受伤了

It is shady out of the window,

Rationale

I should just keep be friend with him right?
Lol~
I started to become greedy once I realized I got his attention.
I am curious to know who posted on his wall, and how many posts and photos he hided from me.
I wondered before, how comes his wall is so clean, and just today I can confirm it from the post I tagged him and he filtered.
*Actually Lyn told me before she tagged him and no one response to it and I cant see the post on his wall*
I know now that he reviewed all the posts and stuffs he is tagged and he decides which to appear on his wall.




He made this photo appeared on his wall, lol~
But all the other posts he filtered already.

He responded to both Gwiyomi and Fiyomi videos, hahahaa!

He always think I cannot have a guy to be interested in me.
And actually recently I received hints from 2 guys.
Alfred and QQ. They are both same age and their birthdays are just 1 month apart.
I think if it was me last time, I already have a boyfriend now and it was QQ.
Lol~
Although I might have great interest to experience the "potential to have more romantic and fun scenes when I have a junior boyfriend", but the fact is I become mature.
If I meet him when I was 19 or even 17 when I might not care about any consequence.
If he does meet me that time, he will not even look at me cause I was more chubby than now I am.
I do think he is special and he owned his characteristics.
The tactics he used was those crossed my brain before and made me feel familiar.
Yea, maybe it is not creative and seem ordinary, but it happened in real!
A guy who is persistent and does not give up even I rejected him for so many times. (food delivery, temperature during prom, supper invitation, photo taking)
A guy who asked me to massage him to have intimate contact.
A guys who asked me out for a chat in the middle of a show.
A guy who tried to get closer to me and kept come nearer even I kept step backward.(luckily no wall)
A guy who likes my eyes and asked me to take off my glasses to stare at my eyes.
A guy who looked at me like he wants to mark my face in his memories.
A guy who looked into my eyes like he wants to see through me.
A guy who likes my maniac and expression-full way of talking yet think that I am cute.
A guy who does not mind that I talk so loud cause he knows I can talk so soft if I want to.
A guy who can talk sweets and have courage to talk even he might be laughed by the girl.
It is impossible for a guy can do such lot of efforts and still can not get the girl.
Cause girls easily get affections from these little things, and the moments are all in appropriate situation.
So why the guy can not get the girl?
Because my heart is still on CKM.
If CKM just did any one of the actions above, he will straight get what he want from me.
Lol, yea, that's why it is less challenging and he does not want me.

QQ is a Capricorn.
He is the third Capricorn guy in my life.
Qian, Jambu and QQ.
CKM is the only Pieces.

I can sure Capricorn can take good care of me well.
They might be boring, but they are nice.

But I rather be a single lady and insist to keep my love in my heart for the rest of my life if it is not him.
I have enough experience, one is actually enough but I had ruined it.
So the second one, I will protect it and will not let it have any impurity.

USM confession

There is a page, and I found something.

Confession #38

Its the end of another semester, but I wanna tell you, L*** C****, I will not give up. I really hope that one day you will be mine!

It sounds like my friend's name~~

Confession #38

Sometime I just feel very annoyed. Do people out there understand that
feelings cannot be forced? I don't like the girl then I don't like.
There is no possibility that we will be together. I already said a lot
of times I don't like. Please don't make any comment on it. There is
still other girls that I liked. The way you guys talk about me and the
girl will make my dream girl run away. HELLO. Be concern a bit. Now I
still can stand it. If some day I really cannot stand already all your
nonsense comment, don't blame me for it. ONCE AGAIN. I DON'T LIKE THE
GIRL. STOP SAYING ALL THOSE COMMENT ON FACEBOOK. BECAUSE ITS ANNOYING.
TQVM.

Another confession, sounds so familiar, lol~

Forever love

When I listened this melody sounded from the FM, I smiled and I think of you.
It is a weird smile that I knew it will just appear when I feel in love.

爱你 不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你 每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见Forever 才了解自己
未来这些日子 要好好珍惜

爱我 有些痛楚 有些不公平
如果真的爱我 不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边 像微风神奇
温柔的安抚 我的不安定

所以我~要 每天研究你的笑容 Ooh 多么自然
Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后 你会是所有 幸福的理由

爱情是场最美最远的旅行
沿途雨季泥泞 偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里 像阳光和煦
巧妙的融化 我的不安定
不可思议 证明我爱你的理由 Ooh 多么自然

你感动的眼睛 我沉默的声音 彷佛就是最好的证明
就让我在说一次 I love you oh （直到永远）

Love you, not just because of your beauty,
I love you more and more, every sight touches my heart.
Because of you I see forever, then I understand myself.
The days in the future, that I should cherish.

Love me, there will be some pain with unfairness.
If you really love me, this is not a easy decision.
I feel your breathes beside my ear, like breezes, it is amazing.
Gently comfort my insecurity.
That's why I want study your smiles everyday, oh, it is so natural.

Forever love, forever love,
I just want to spend my whole life to love you.
Since then, you will be my reason to all happiness.

Love, is a tour which is the most beautiful yet far.
There will be raining season and mud all along the way,
sometimes it will obstruct our progression.
I feel your body-warmth in my arms, like sunshine, it is warming.
Wisely melt my uncertainty.
Unbelievable, it proves the reason that I love you, it is so natural.

The touching showed in your eyes and my silence are such good proves
Then I tell again, I love you, till forever.

Fireflies trip

Drew this after Amu asked me to watch fireflies with her after Professional Exam.
I think of him, who probably will not accompany me to do this kind of time-consuming stuff again.

Although the first time was because he just accidentally passed by.

笨小说

我们的开始，是很长的小说，
编辑了两年，我日记都还写着。
你背后的流星，已经消逝了多久？
望着你，忘了忘记你。
网络的世界，我们聊了多久？
清除了聊天记录，只剩照片上的签名，
记录着你的存在。
如果再重来，会不会稍显狼狈？
爱是不是，不开口才珍贵？

再给你两个月，让我把记忆都忘了，
别停止跟女孩儿约会，她妆都画了，
叫我怎么不记得？
记得我叫你忘了吧！记得我叫你忘了吧?
我会哭，是因为我在乎。

Our beginning is a very long novel,

Edited for two years, and it still keeps writing in my diary.

Meteor behind you has gone long.

Look at you, forget to forget you.

Via visual social media, and we talked long.
Cleared the chats, only the signatures on the left photos,
record you exist before.

If we start it all over again, will it looked embarrassing?

Love is it, precious when it is not revealed?

Give you two more months, let me forget all of the memories,

Do not stop to date with the girls, they had done their makeups,

How can I not remember that?

I remember I told you to forget it! I remember I told you just forget it?

I cry because I care.

Feelings

Yea, awkward...

You asked me, why I snigger behind your back when he sang the songs...
"Because my crush does something cute to me and I just cant stop smiling"

Your Gwiyomi, you tried to provoke me...

Weird dream

I dreamt of him, that we stayed opposite of the apartment and we stayed at highest floor.
He stayed staight opposite of my room and I can always look out from my window and see what he is doing.
He knew I always peek on him and he also wanted to find out am I really kept peek on him.
So I have to hide.
And I can not resist to look at him, even though there is always an existence of different girls in his room.
I think I gone crazy.
I hate this.

Without him

Why there are so many girls who like him around me??
Is it if I do not like him anymore, do not love him anymore can make me less suffer??
I keep torturing myself by imagining all those non-beneficial stuffs!!!
Will he be happy and feels so in love when he sees Carmen does Gwiyomi.
Did he know that the mature and man guy who YY likes is him?
Does he know that Lyn cares about YY because they both like him?
Why did the chocolate moouse like the photos he took with girls?
Do not she feel jealous?
I think too much!!!

I am lost!!!

My life will be more happy without him...
My life can be relax without him...

First paper down!

Went to take CFCS paper this afternoon.
I wanted to look at him so I turned to the back and talked to the girl behind me (PBL mate)
Then I tried to talk to Alfred and CKM always interrupted whoever I talked to.
I was talking about Gwiyomi with Alfred, he thought I talked about peer evaluation.
He threatened me that he just give 2 out of 5 marks to me, and I diverted the topic.
I know he tried to provoke me but I should just ignore.
Then I said his hair is like dragon ball character.
He was happy that he got my attention?
Then he showed me more by putting his hair more to stand, hahahahaaaaa!
I like his hair style!
That's why he straightened his hair??
Ok, he sets this hair maybe to have a date with another girl.
Whatever~

I love him...

Gwiyomi

Yesterday we had breakfast together after the presentation, I looked at him till a satisfaction and I got nervous when he was presenting.
He interested about Alfred love life, hahahaaa~~~

Today, I went for the briefing for exam.
It was very hot. Lyn and I went in the hall beside ours and chatted.
I told her about the Gwiyomi dance, and she felt the actions are over.
And she said she cant imagine if her boyfriend do it.
I asked, KM?
And I actually hope if he can perform that, it will be very sweet till I cant tahan so I felt gedik and laughed.
While Lyn felt shy and impossible and she laughed too.

Then I was singing the song and walked to our hall.
I saw Thban and Semi once I entered.
I disturbed Semi with Gwiyomi song and I did not know, CKM was right beside him.. =.=
Oh snap!!
How come I can missed-look??
I do think I looked around but how come I did not notice him?
He heard that and he looked interested in that, but I did not disturb him with that so he just remained calm.
Lyn stood left of me, and later she wanted to share chair with me, and she moved to my right and sat.
Ok, both me and Thban understood that she wanted to sit nearer to CKM.

We shifted to previous hall cause the air-conditioner in our hall still not fix.
I chose a seat and Semi asked me to sit beside him, and CKM went there and sat beside Semi... =.=
Ok, I might think he does not want me to sit with Semi, but then, he forgot that Lyn was after him and he can sit with Lyn la!!!
So, Thban asked me sit with him while if I sat beside Lyn, I will be the light bulb.
And CKM rampas my seat with Semi =.=
Then I showed Semi some actions of Gwiyomi, and he had a great response!
Thban and Semi both do not like it, even Fiona.
Thban took my photos secretly and then I thought Semi also.
Hahahaa, so I posed double V beside my face and said "This is Asian kind of photo posture."
Then CKM heard that, he found the chance and started to perform it to me, the "6+6" kissed six times on six fingers.
Cute cute cute!!! Sweet sweet sweet!!!
Then he loaded the video and showed everyone, hahahaaa!!!
He tried to get agreement from Joe to support that the girl is pretty, lol~
I told Semi there are actually some guys who like it!!
Later he performed the "1+1", "4+4" and "6+6" parts~
Although I wished to see, but Thban had forbid me to look at him and talk to him, Thban asked leaved space for him and Lyn...
So I can just see his hands' movements...
Although I am the one who like it, and I think the show was for me, but after all Lyn was the one who teased him and talked to him and laughed with him...
He looked at me when he performed that, I wished to record it down......
Lyn laughed happily when she saw him doing it...
Well, I thought she against it?

I can see he was tried his best to avoid contact with her along the period he sat with Lyn...
He focused on his phone more, like always, and do not know chat with which girl.
Then I saw Joanne teased Lyn with her facial expressions, I laughed from far...
I saw she fanned him, then he saw me tease-laughing at him with those ambiguous relationship interactions, lol~
Later CKM felt awkward, he found a chance, he talked to Joe with his games last night, so he moved to my side, Joe was sitting below me.
He looked at me, he put his hand near me, grabbing the table, showing me his hand...
Was him trying to tempt me with his fingers and hand?
Yea, I got seduced, happy?
Sometimes, I will look at his hands and fingers...
"The spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly."

Yea, I did have the impulse to grab his hand, but how I can do it in public?
=.=
I am no longer a childish girl.
Maybe before ending of third year, I will do something crazy if there is a chance.
Since we will not meet each other for next academic year.
Now we are in same group, but we seldom can see each other, and from others experience, clinical years are busy and there will be no time for mingling around.

Lol, we will not even meet from now on till the day we ended our examinations.

 

Mock Mock Presentation

31 March 2013

I spent 3 hours writing the essay and slept only 4 hours last night.
But I insisted to attend to class and presentation.
I want to see him, I want to hear his voice...
He was late while I went for ATM.
Lyn thought that I went for breakfast with Thban and others.
He wore purple today.
He looked at me when I walked to my friends.
I do not like much the way he put his collars, maybe his shoulder problems?
I prefer gentleman style like Ken, while he likes to act like a bad playboy although he will never be one.

I took my photos out for signatures.
He sat at the end of the table while I sat in the middle.
He noticed my actions and he was looking at me.
I shifted my sight when we nearly stared on each other.
I talked with YY and Lyn, about my essay competition and other stuffs.
He found a chance to come near to us, when the people in between us went away.

He was curious of what I wanted to do and what was going on.
I told to him that, we signed for him for 2 years for his attendance, now is the time he should sign for me.
He took the photos after YY signed her name.

He said he never see the photos before, Lyn replied that she gave everyone on that day.
I teased him that he must be threw the photos into rubbish bin already.
Later I just let him do whatever he wanted on the photos.

Actually I hope that he will be the last to write and maybe he will write something meaningful.
While the person who has this thought is Lyn.
Hahahaaa~
Ok, so I just thought that he will just simply sign his usual signature, and when I took back my photos, I saw two huge and big AUTOGRAPHs on each of the photo!! =.=
Lyn said she had warned me to let people signed on just one of the photos, and now his autograph occupied most of the space of both photos...
I told him, "You think you are an artist arr??"
He was talking to others while we continued teasing him.
Later he replied: "Not I think, I know." with confident >.<

...... What the!!!
And he tried to play cool with us =.=
What does he know?

He does know how I get those hurts from him and how silly am I who keep put in hope and keep disappointing?

No way, he does not know.

He presented and I listened and looked sepuas-puas I can.

Later Thban, Suhaimi, Fiona and Alfred signed on the photos too.
And he was with us, we kept teased the one who occupied most of the space and he was satisfied with the after effects of his action... =.=
And I teased him again that he threw the photos away already.
Lyn told me he purposely signed huge autographs to annoy me. I replied I am not annoyed at all.
Lol, he failed.

Well, instead I like what he did very much, hahahaaa~~
I appreciate what he did for me, to let me feel so in love and I really love this feeling like we are having underground relationship.

Hohohohooo~~

I kept smiling and I hardly pretend to be angry with him.
Even when I tried to tease him, I think my angle of mouth betrayed me.

I got his autograph!!!

That maybe will be the only in this world, if there is no another one asking him to sign.

Maybe he will sign for others, but I am still the first fan.
Hahahaaa~~

I did this kind of things like we are not going to meet after this, speechless. =.=

He wandered around me and finally he stood in front me, with his hands leaned the table, and looked at me.
(The posture looked like flirtation between boy and girl)

I diverted the attention, I looked at his hair, and my hands had acted to touch it. I nearly success but suddenly I stopped and asked for permission, I remembered what happened before and I am scared.

Then he said "No". T.T
Amu got a chance to touch his hair while I was asking permission.

He reacted fast and avoided further torture from Amu, he was very sensitive with his hair.

Hahahaaa~~
Then he moved his head to shift his hair to aside.

We laughed with his action.
I asked him whether he watched "Ah boys to men", there is a guy who feels hesitate to shave his long golden hair and he likes to shake his head.
Then he started to shake his hair and acted like playboy, bad boy and whoever he thinks he is.
Hahahaa~
I purposely asked him, "You want to look like FSP?"
Then I was about to leave, he leaved too, but he came back and waited for lunch.
If he waited for me to ask him, then maybe I will not ask him for my whole life.
I lost my courage to ask him to lunch anymore, although I did it frequently before this.

I will not ask him for lunch, I will not ask him for a fetch, I will not ask him for anything.
Lyn asked him for lunch, he said Harmony then. She wanted him to fetch us out. But she was not brave to ask, I ok with Harmony but Thban was there to say just let them have their private space.

He stood with us and said he wanted to have lunch fast and go back to continue his sleep.
He looked at me and asked where we want to have lunch. I replied without looking at him and said let Amu decides.
And he turned away and said he wanted to go back and sleep.

There we lost a chance to have lunch together.
And he actually that kind of guy who asks Lyn for lunch, then why should I ask him for lunch?

Later Thban teased Lyn a lot and I actually have to smile and laugh while hearing all those heart prickling topics…
And continuing like his photos with Lyn...