Rationale

I should just keep be friend with him right?
Lol~
I started to become greedy once I realized I got his attention.
I am curious to know who posted on his wall, and how many posts and photos he hided from me.
I wondered before, how comes his wall is so clean, and just today I can confirm it from the post I tagged him and he filtered.
*Actually Lyn told me before she tagged him and no one response to it and I cant see the post on his wall*
I know now that he reviewed all the posts and stuffs he is tagged and he decides which to appear on his wall.




He made this photo appeared on his wall, lol~
But all the other posts he filtered already.

He responded to both Gwiyomi and Fiyomi videos, hahahaa!

He always think I cannot have a guy to be interested in me.
And actually recently I received hints from 2 guys.
Alfred and QQ. They are both same age and their birthdays are just 1 month apart.
I think if it was me last time, I already have a boyfriend now and it was QQ.
Lol~
Although I might have great interest to experience the "potential to have more romantic and fun scenes when I have a junior boyfriend", but the fact is I become mature.
If I meet him when I was 19 or even 17 when I might not care about any consequence.
If he does meet me that time, he will not even look at me cause I was more chubby than now I am.
I do think he is special and he owned his characteristics.
The tactics he used was those crossed my brain before and made me feel familiar.
Yea, maybe it is not creative and seem ordinary, but it happened in real!
A guy who is persistent and does not give up even I rejected him for so many times. (food delivery, temperature during prom, supper invitation, photo taking)
A guy who asked me to massage him to have intimate contact.
A guys who asked me out for a chat in the middle of a show.
A guy who tried to get closer to me and kept come nearer even I kept step backward.(luckily no wall)
A guy who likes my eyes and asked me to take off my glasses to stare at my eyes.
A guy who looked at me like he wants to mark my face in his memories.
A guy who looked into my eyes like he wants to see through me.
A guy who likes my maniac and expression-full way of talking yet think that I am cute.
A guy who does not mind that I talk so loud cause he knows I can talk so soft if I want to.
A guy who can talk sweets and have courage to talk even he might be laughed by the girl.
It is impossible for a guy can do such lot of efforts and still can not get the girl.
Cause girls easily get affections from these little things, and the moments are all in appropriate situation.
So why the guy can not get the girl?
Because my heart is still on CKM.
If CKM just did any one of the actions above, he will straight get what he want from me.
Lol, yea, that's why it is less challenging and he does not want me.

QQ is a Capricorn.
He is the third Capricorn guy in my life.
Qian, Jambu and QQ.
CKM is the only Pieces.

I can sure Capricorn can take good care of me well.
They might be boring, but they are nice.

But I rather be a single lady and insist to keep my love in my heart for the rest of my life if it is not him.
I have enough experience, one is actually enough but I had ruined it.
So the second one, I will protect it and will not let it have any impurity.