Cheer up!!!

It is quite sad that I have to hide some parts of myself to let common people to accept who I am.
I experienced this in school, and now I will face it in hometown.

Some said I forced them to do good deeds.

Hello, you already wasted how many years and days in your life spending all you luck, and now I just ask you to donate once, and tell them a bit about dhamma, they said I am over??

Hello, everyday you are speaking bad words and dirty words anytime you want to say, and now I just ask you to spend 5 minutes to make your mouth speak good words and chant, is it over?

When people said, doing good deeds not necessary have to spend money, and when I introduce online chanting which is free of charge, they still have objections, saying that they do not understand the chant, saying they have no time.

Well, that's why I asked you to do good deeds with money. It is much more easier compared to you have to chant by yourself right?

Oh, then some will say me so realistic, only request money from friends.

Hello, I donate too, I donate more than everyone I asked.
Do you think I need to cheat your money and let all of my friends think bad of me?
I love to have the feeling of being mis-thought that I am a cheater?
Wow, while people have never expose to this kind of knowledge, never know anything about this field, and they straight away shoot me that I am wrong?

It is just like a layman tells the doctor how to operate, and the doctor wants to explain him about anatomy, then the layman says, no the bomoh said there will be something in the where where, must take it out, no, your decision is wrong, your way to operate is wrong, you should do like this and like that.

Or a layman heard something from friends and MO, then when he heard something different from the specialist, then he questioned the specialist why his explanations are different from others, and most people said it that way, specialist must be wrong.

Lol, funny right?

People are willing to go for Famine 30, it is a good action.
While if I tell people I willing to hold 8 precepts, to not eat after noon, it have the same effects that we can save some food, we can know the feeling of hunger, but then people will say why are you so unhealthy?
What?? Eat too much at night, when our digestive system is weak, and make your body wastes energy is considered healthy??

I should not be so emotional, I should not explain myself, just because I still care to have my friends around, I want them to understand me.
When I do not really care of them, I wont even talk to them.


Who cares? I care.
I will not, in future.