To Jambu

Something that you had misunderstood, but just let it be...
Explanation not helpful anymore.

4 years of relationship, but you watch me grown up from my 14yo.
I think we treated each other as family more than lover.
That is why we both still can chat to each other now...

Thank you for your presence in my life, you help me a lot...
I am who I am, you taught me to be...


Yet, I had disappointing you..
I am that kind of girl who can not wait.
I am that kind of girl who scared of loneliness.
I am that kind of girl who normal guys will not appreciate me.

I know I am too brave, I chose a guy who will not like me.

I already tried for more than 2 months, to get his attention, to return him as if he gave me something,
and I think, you are right, guys scared of me because of my great courage..

I am so tired to guess his thought anymore,
I am so tired to get his attention anymore,
I am so tired to angry and ashamed with myself anymore.

I hope someday in the future, there will be a guy,
who will like me without me have to do any thing, in purpose of impress him,
make me fall for him, with obvious actions, an open chasing...

About Ming Ming, he got my attention.
Maybe he is that kind of playboy, make me misunderstood that he like me,
or I am that kind of good imaginary girl, easily fall for guys??

I always get wrong messages from guys, you know that right?
So, thank you for wishing me to have happy ending with Ming Ming,
but I do not think he likes me too..

Lastly, I will prevent myself from easily chased by any guy, in appreciation of you cherish me so much ^.^

I Love You, friend~