Heart breaking

I said I miss him, he gave me a "=.=" face...
I chatted him, but he do not want to reply me...
Not that I do not like him, not that I have no determination to like him...
But what I hope is, the guy that I like, like me too simultaneously, is not about chasing, is about liking each other without any hard effort have to do by any of us.

So, we are in different channel, we are not in same path.

I have imagine the life if we being together.
Every weekday, we will be meet in lecture hall, our PBL, CSC, clinical teaching as usual.
Lunch together like what we do now, after that hang out in library.
I read my Chinese newspaper, he read his note, he take a nap.
After class, I go back room, he will go to play badminton, gym and so on.
Me still staying in room, sleeping or online.
I will go to jogging with friends, or alone, or sometimes meet Ken.
Sure he will not accompany me to jog, cause I'm not at his level, and quite wasted his time, he can do more.
Then we will not meet until to next morning.
Maybe we will chat in facebook at night.

Weekends, we have our own gang, we will not go out together.
But if sometimes we want to date, then just go outside for a walk.

I thought this is some kind of mature love life.
We do not occupy each other life.

But when I need him, he can accompany with me.


Maybe the times of "I need him" will bother him.

Ya, he told me before, he is satisfied with his life now.
He do not need anybody else.
He is totally independent, discipline, smart enough.

Me the one who always care of his cough, his academic...

Just forget about it.
I thought he is the one.
I thought this is a mature love.
I thought we both like each other.

And actually not.
I still will smile to him.
I still will say "Good Morning" to him.

I will treat him like how I treat Ken.
I now try to pretend, and later I can treat him like how I treat Ken.
When I finally no need to pretend, I success.