Sadness

I feel sad...
I dreamt of him last night...
And we were together, he likes me as I do...
And the 2 sided feeling is called LOVE...
This morning, saw him sleeping and did not set his hair, hahahahaa!!!
Studying until no time to set hair??
And later, he is so so catch people's eyes with his tie >.<
How many ties he has??
Yellow, black and silver??

T.T
But I'm not the one he want to attract to... T.T
I think his admirers all feel very happy to see him too...
And I found another girl to join his fans' club...

That's make me down today...
Plus, I'm in menstrual pain..
Watching movie during quarantine quite relieving pain, the abdominal muscles help to compress the uterus I think?

Now when I look at him, I can not afford the feeling of crushing on my chest..
Because I think of his admirers, because I'm not his "The One", because he is not mine...
Jealousy, make me ugly, and I do not want to be an ugly girl.
Now, not anymore should I forget him, is "Can I forget about him?"

And so, I will not look at him anymore, I will not let myself fall for him anymore...
This is not love, this is not.