MKI

Tonight was great.
I did not make up at all.
I wore Amu's Punjabi suit.
It is very tight.
I wore my heels, still I cant really afford that height.
I forgot to put on my bling bling earing.
I was concentrating watching the show, patiently queued for food.
When we changed our line to another side, I saw KJ, talked to him, and asked him why alone, and should come with female errhheemmm...
He said he came with male.
Later he told us he was in an accident yesterday night!!
And I said, I am glad to see him.
So, soon soon I saw him sitting with his gang of friends, made me even missed KahSui standing there!!
He occupied my mind, made my vision just focus on him...
So Cindy gave me signal but I cant get her, lastly she said Kahsui, so I turned to him and shouted, "Kah sui!!!"
Ks said why I shouted so loud, he was shocked!! And he said why I took so much food T.T
So I went back to my seat... Eat without tasting, my eyes kept searching for him...
Felt so down that I saw him, and we are strangers...
Felt so glad that we were in the same place, watched the same show..

Looked to his direction, found that he looked to our direction too...
May he looked at Lyn? Jo? Cindy? GX?
I can not let him catch that I was looking at him..
After so long, this is the first time he sat down and watched show until to the very end.
He felt bored during the drama, he likes the modern dance, he felt excited with the lucky draw...
In the middle, I saw Ah Chok, the junior.
He tied a coconut tree on his head, and he can not recognise me for twice I waved to him =.=
After the show ended, we went to take photo.
He was near to us.
I did not go closer.
A safe distance.
I have no camera.
There is no one care of me and wanted to take photo with me very much.
I saw him taking his camera, wanna someone to help him to take photo.
I was so pua da, not brave to help him to take his photo...
He gave signals of he needs help, I'm just too weak to face him again.
I knew he also avoided to confront me too.
I saw Chris without polo-shirt!!
Huiyo, this must be the historical moment of his change!!
I chased him for photo, he ran away from me =.=
I asked his friends is it this is the first time of this 4 years he wear like this, and he said is 23 years!!
Hahaha!!!
I asked him as if he is in PMS, in fever, or in hormonal inbalance??
And he again criticized me for not knowing how to choose background.
I went back to the stage when I saw my friends taking photos!!
And I did not look at him, I did not hope for a photo with him...
HF saw me chased Chris and teased me with it.
He pushes Edwin to me and asked him to take photo with me~
He asked why Edwin scared of me so so much even take photo also stand far from me.. =.=
me also do not know why... >.<
I saw Ming Ming took a lot of photos with friends, and he acted cute with WC, MH's girlfriend..
He took photo around me, and I hided myself to prevent to be caught in his photos.
I played with my friends, and HT took many of my photos.
That we both were showing we can proceed our life in a nice way without accompany of each other.
Lastly, when MY and YY and Amu wanted to take PBL photo, we took together, with 5 girls and 1 guy.
He showed his happiness or proud to HF, that he can take photos with a lot of girls.
And MY and YY so eager to take photo with him, there are reasons for that.
They shouted for his name.
They are so happy to have a photo with him.
That is a photo of him with his admirers...
And we walked with MH.
I walked very slowly with my heels.
He went out for supper with friends.
I did not look at him obviously.
I succeed to hide my feeling.
The consequence is, I became emo.

Ming's stories

As the director of Modern Dance in CCN, he taught the juniors his favorite dance, Smooth Criminal.
From Borneo Night, he taught the juniors Thriller.
Can see that he admires Michael Jackson very much.
He also acts a bit on the stage.
When he shocked seeing the faces of DoReMi, hold his heart and gasping.
When he surprised seeing Jade came out singing, open his eyes big big and nod his head showing he think the singing and the girl is impressive.
When Ah Chok forced the criminal dancers to crap heavily, he nodded his head and crapped as heavy as he can.

He is a naturally high profile character, and he rather to be a small character on the stage.
He said he wants to be low profile.
Does he knows, he is the main character in my life??

Not in good mood

I'm not in good mood. I feel so sad...
I'm sad..
I'm sad.
I'm sad....
Feel so down...
It is same as the feeling that I overcame my feeling toward Jambu...

Is the time to overcome the feeling toward Ming Ming???

Down

Down down down down...
Someone cheers me up, but also made me more down.
I'm like what people said, a bitch!!

你好吗？ How are you?

牆上靜止的鐘是為誰停留
是不是和我一樣賴著不走
你說故事已經結束　很久
我忘了　向前走
我努力假裝現在過得很好
現在的你看來已不需要我
也許在不同的時空
還牽著　你的手
想知道你真的過得好嗎
沒有我也許是種解脫
將思念穿梭在宇宙數千光年
悄悄到　你身邊
現在我試著習慣一個人過
也許你已經開始新的生活
陪著我的叫做寂寞
陪你的　是誰呢?
想知道你真的過得好嗎
沒有我也許是種解脫
將思念穿梭在宇宙數千光年
悄悄到　你身邊
現在我試著習慣一個人過
也許你已經開始新的生活
陪著我的叫做寂寞
陪你的　是誰呢?
也許在不同的時空
還牽著　你的手

Km

For so long time I did not really talk to him...
I met the first year guy, who danced with you, he has a sweet mouth.
I want to talk with you, but you are too busy for me.
For 2 sentences, you away.
I felt down.
I want to talk with you.
That's why I feel more down.
And I saw him, the junior.
Who makes me happy with just seeing him...
I think the best moment with another person is when you like him, and he did not know it.
Now I being regret to confess to you.

Pretending

Both of us pretending to be friends???
Asked him to lunch with us, but ended with he finished his spaghetti when we just got our food.
I called him "Ming Ming".
As I know he not really wants to friend with me...
And he changed his introduction to "Ming" instead of "Ching".

I know I still have the habit to take a peek on him.
And I do not want him to know this.
I think he caught me a few times, or he just ignored it.
I will change slowly...
Please do not feel annoyed by me...

And he sat with the Carmen, who admires him, and she feel "bahagia" I think.
And I talked to Aiman, we have a lot to discuss, about the academic.
When I wanted to tell Lyn that talk to Aiman is better than *Imran, Darul, Iki*
she cut my line and said that better than Ming Ming.
Hmmm, that is not my main intention in that conversation...

And she asked me that why I think YY likes him, and I said the different ways of her treats others friends.
So she asked me as if I thought she likes Ming Ming too.
I honestly told her, ya.
And she did not deny it, she just said that he irritated her a lot.
I used back her words that "Dun you watch Taiwanese Drama?"
when she teased me with the junior, Ah Yik.
And I stated that: "Sure you have some points of interest toward him."

And she did not deny again.

Hmmmm, Ming Ming, he really a good magnet.

Friends

Yes, we become friends again, hoho~
Do not make thing worse again~~~
Happy to be just friend~~~

一緒

来年も一緒にCCN看れるといいね？

Cool

He acts cool and he denied it.
Cant we just go back to normal days??
It tortures me...

He's back

Hehehehe, saw him online, and he came back in campus edi ^.^
Can see him by tomorrow~~

Be friend!! Be friendly!!!

FB Love Story

Add as friend → Approve → Write something on wall → Introduce →
Everyday chatting → Ask phone number → Text messaging → Calling → Meeting → Like each other → In relationship with → Hangout a lot → Misunderstanding →
Fight→ Break up → Unfriend → Block .

- THE END

I'm now in stage phone number >.<

So fast!!

Over

He is now in SUKAD.
He departed straight after CCN? Or morning??
He is not in campus now.
May him be there tomorrow??

It's over.
I do not want us to be like enemies.
I admit I like him, maybe love him too..
Because he is the type of guy I like.
He does not like me, so I just wait for another guy who is same type with him to come close to me again.
If not this type of guy, then I rather to be alone for whole life.

Be open-minded, Moon!!!

Down

Today will be the last day I'm so down.
Going to class and I will be happy Moon again!!
Ok!!!

Misunderstood

Ya, again, Lyn told me that *a bit shy and feel happy with that* he walked around her for many times yesterday.
And when she got the prize, he purposely went to her and said congratulation to her, and asked for Bird's Nest.

He totally ignored me yesterday. I supposed, he really hates me now.

Keep thinking

Was him in pain or what last night??
Worry...
Harrrr..

From yesterday observation, he likes peanut...

Ming Ming

Facebook without him is boring...
Life without him is boring...

This is not my fault to fall for him, just because he has a very strong field of attraction.

Why my heart so down, and recently mood so down all the time...
Especially when saw him...

CCN

Woke up early and went to mydin to buy something useful in wearing dress.
Whole day did nothing, just prepared for the night.
Drew eyeliner for half an hour, =.=
And so I late for dinner and ate a bun.
Saw him around once I stepped in the hall.
I did not say “Hi” to him…
I kept searching for him…
Finally I took my courage and asked him the eyeliner, some lame thing, hahaha, and he ignored me.
OK, fine.
Saw him looked at girls, I can confirm now he is not gay.
And the obvious one is when he took second look of Jo.
He avoided talking to me.
He is so bad.
I was the ticket cutter, haha~~
I took photo of the red carpet and with the background.
To join the contest, Hahahaa!!!
I helped in delivering food, and then I was lazy and then I just let it be…
When the event proceeded, I saw him stood with KJ.
So I approached Gary and later KJ when he was not there.
I stood the same place until the end.
When he came down from the stage, he was around me and this is some kind of watching show together???
I knew I over-think again.
Saw his performance and feeling great.
He is so talented.
He went away once the event ended I think.
He must be busy.

Can I love him in a way of friend??

The eighth member of THE club

1. Joanne
2. MY
3. Lyn
4. Carmen
5.  Fiona
6. YY
7. Carmen
8. QJ

Did I missed anyone??
I suspected the 8th fan from long time ago.
During the G.Stong trip, somemore the guy denied it last time.
I intentionally trapped her to tell me about the trip.
She said she went there with her lover.
She had a crush on him.
One of the three guy: KS, KM and SY.
KS has gf while SY liked EJ, so left the one the most suspicious.
Confirmation: The name that she called that time was his name.
Hmmm, why the most important memories always missing in my brain??
And she pretending she forgot about me. Our first meet was during the mini TOT.
I think she really forgot about me and during the trip she saw me talking with him and later she recalled back who am I, hahahahaa!!!
She told me I was the one who talked to KM the way walked out to the bus. And I had long hair that time.
And actually, I was the one who shared umbrella with KJ, and she just remembered KM, obviously, LOL~~~
She did not even remembered KJ existance!!!
And I do not know from the first day I talked to KM, I already in the risk of being murdered inside a vinegar tank >.<
Hahahaa, I should tell this to KJ later!!


Another story for today is about him.
Saw his curly hair before he bathed, and he straightened his hair afterward.
Just I observed him more, that's why I always feel his existence.
Maybe got other people who also always appear in front of me by chance, but I did not notice.

How about I saw him looked to my direction when he was on the stage??
Twice, and I can feel that he was looking at me, I had eye-contact with him, bravely, and I did not avoid his sight.
Because he is the performer and I am the audience.
I have to proper reason to watch him still...
Let's say that is his part of actions, but his posture should not look to my direction cause there is 60 degree view different.
It is awkward to him to look at my direction....
Maybe again this is a mis-feeling.

I really miss him...
I feel worry with his tiredness...
He is the kind of guy with responsibility.
This kind of guys really attractive...

And I'm not responsible girl >.<
Not match.
T.T

Immature

After class, me Lyn and Cindy went to SR.
We talked until 6pm++ from 3pm++
And we talked about maturity, and somehow, they noticed I can not understand them...
I felt so sad that I cried immediately and feel that I'm immature, too many people said like that, too many...
I have no choice but to agree this...
My mentally age not grow simultaneously with my biological age and I have difficulties in understanding complicated things...
I feel that I'm useless and I'm like mental retardation..
I scared that my mind just stuck here and will never grow...
And they both advised me to stay stronger to face the realities, and to face my own weaknesses...
And means that I'm too fragile.
I hate myself who is so weak.

If I stay simple like this, I will be categorized as people who do not think further than present, do not have ambition, useless, no aim, immature...
People should grow up, everyone should!!!

Pass

I pass!!
No worry of the result before actually, cause even so the result will not change.
At least I can understand the questions even I can not answer them...
By the way, my phase 1 knowledge really bad...

Result

Result will come out tomorrow, and I do not know my fate.
My parents called me this morning and told me I have some degree of raise of thyroid hormones from my blood tests.
No medication is needed, but if the symptoms worsen then I need to go for further check up...

And I found that i have heat intolerance, that is headache when the room temperature exceed 32C.

Full Dress Rehearsal

Went to the main hall to help, actually nothing I can do for them...
Talked to may people to show people I really can talk to different people...

Saw him...
Avoided him for many times...
Although I kept peeking on him...
But got a few times that we were closed to each other >.<
When he passed by my seat, when we crossed over in front toilet, when I walked to take green bean soup, when we accidentally met and I said "Yo"...




I can smell his cologne and feel his presence...
I should not do like this!!!


He was busy, walked in and out of the hall, I kept finding him...
Taught Lawrence the way to act, and finally I felt that is difficult task, hahahahaa!!!
And Lawrence really likes to touch people =.=

How I can feel he was searching for me too??
This is some kind of misunderstanding right?

He always appear in front me, or maybe I'm observing him too much??

He passed by my seat, while there is a large space to go...
I walked to the green bean soup station, and he co-incidentally walked there too, and I turned away when I saw him... And suddenly Ken shouted my name and chatted with me...
When I said "Yo" to him cause we met face to face, unavoidable, he was not satisfied with me..
I think I should not say anything to him anymore, cause he is unhappy with me talking to him.

Watched his dance, I wanted to just focus on him, but hmmmm....
I think SN told HT about him...
And he joked about "small eyes guy", I'm dead.
He knew it.
I hate myself of can not keep own secret.
I think the whole school will know slowly.
And that time, he will really hates me.

I can do as I ignore him, I can pretend that I do not care of him.
And I need more time to quit searching for him, looking at him, caring of him...
Soon soon, I will success.

So, peoples, I already being rejected, do not create more harm to me, just keep this as a imaginary story, or forget this story.
I'm now trying so hard to erase my false feeling, to correct the situation, to maintain friendship.
Do not keep reminding me, so that I will not over-think.
Please keep your mouth shut, your words just hurting me more.
He does not like me, even if I tell the whole world that I like him, or I admit that I like him from your questioning, do not struggling to get the answer and the truth.
If you are the kind of people like to see other hurt, then please force me to answer you.

Then I will tell that, I like him and he told me that I'm just a little sister for him...
I'm not his type, and ya, I was rejected.

Casual

Saw him wearing his casual wear, hahahaa!!!
Very soft mia cloth.
With a very non-emotional face, said :"Hi" to each other.

I did not expect to see him, and suddenly when I turned and his face appeared in front me.

LC asked me suddenly whether I got a crush, is him CKM =.=
The whole world know??
Sure I denied...

T.T
I no brave mia... T.T

By the way, these few weeks I do not have any interaction with him pun, from where people suspect that??

This happens all the time to both Men and Women

Non-talk

Today saw him in lobby of BPSP, he was wearing a new shirt, without his inner T-shirt, and showing his chest and necklaces.
And with pacak hair.
I do not like this image, very playboy, hahaha!!
Especially he talked with a lot of girls when I saw him.
I will never like that shirt with that hair.

We lunch together and he waited for us for awhile after he was done, then he gone.
We were not talking at all. And I did not look at him at all.
We did not try to talk to each other.

I scared if I look at him, I will fall more to him.
I scared if I talk to him, he ignores me.

I am depressed.
Without talk with him, without look at him.
I cant smile like last time.
At least let me adapt for 1 week, and I will be the cute SM next week.

A feeling of safe

He stood in front me when we were in the lift...
I looked at his back, and feel safe.
Is it good if he is my boyfriend?


Can hug him anytime I want to do so, just call and he will be there.

Do not know why,  although I want to avoid him, but sometimes I can not control myself and go near to him...
He too, knowing that me liking him...
Avoided me sometimes, and I also can feel that sometimes he keeps looking at me, finding me, maybe he wants to know whether I have bad intentions toward him??

Like what he said, do not assume people like you. Think that they hate you.

And I gave up my slimming plan..
No friend accompany me to jog, and I do not have shoes to jog =.=

The shoes is the main problem I think...
I'm now pokai-ing T.T

Ok la, buy new cheap cheap shoes la!!

Prominant

Finally can see him today!
He walked behind us when we walked into our tutor room.
He is not energetic for whole day.
Tired.
He likes to talk with Lyn actually.
He ate alone during lunch time, and the another 3 girls were observing him too, kakaka!!!
Last time I thought he bought cake because he wanted to wait us eating, and this hypothesis is rejected.
Today he took away of the cake.

Clinical teaching time.
He told that he has kidney problems.
He never tell me things about him...
He is sick.
He is suspected to have kidney stone.

I showed Amu Leehom's photo, and Amu said look alike him =.=
OMG, where got??
Although the concert video showed Leehom who is Syok Sendiri, this is quite similar >.<
And he is happy =.= 

And I just talked to him once or twice...
He be the subject to be examined again.
He took off his cloth and we saw abs...
My heart beats raised for awhile, and then normal all the time.
Pity him being pressed for so hard, I feel if it's me, should be very painful.

And I avoided him, stood far away from him, not looking at him...
Although I took a few peeks of his abs, wakakaka, actually the beginning do not plan to "watch", but I scared if I regret later, hahahahaa!!!
Quite nice!! quite nice!!

PS: He is handsome like always ^.^

Busy Special Task?

He was absent in class today.
Today I will just stay in room.
Will not see him at all...

Schooling

Because of him, I have no hesitation to come back school, cause I can see him again...
In this campus...

Went to see drum after took a nap of 2 hours...
He was in front of DU, making a director chair.
And we both looked at each other, without smile and without saying "Hi".
Depressed..

Today went jogging with Chris...
10 mins, made me tired till clamping of my perineum...
Knowing that I am PMS now...
So I lose in jogging competition with Chris, and owe him food, perhaps Mcd Ice-cream.

Walk

Went out for a walk with my roommate just now for 40mins...
RL has highly responsibility and this made her suffer, angry and burden her more.

That's why I'm not same type with her.
That's why I do not want to learn.
That's why I'm simple.

I enjoyed the walk, with chatting, with flowers' scents, with lamppost light.

Meaningless

Whatever now I said to him considered as weird weird things...

What's the point now??
He does not want to hear anything from me anymore.

He is not my listener anymore?
He was a great listener before last Valentine's Day, even after that a few days...

Hmmm, he is too busy???

He think my words pointless...
Then he wont want to hear my problems anymore...
Cause that all are nonsense...

Control

Can I chat him and tell him that I miss him??
Can I chat him and tell him that I work so hard to sell tickets??
Can I chat him and tell him that I stupid stupid fell from motorcycle today??

And he offline now... Lost chance again...

I need him...
I want him to pat my head and sayang my injuries, and my hardwork to sell tickets T.T

Meanwhile, if he know I fell down from motorcycle, then I might be banned from using motorcycle from CFCS, cannot tell anyone!!!!

And tonight went to Golden City, a place Kelantanese go and have alcohol, with the smoke =.=
Ordered fruit juice, kakakaaa, so unmatched with the environment, lol~~~

Friends ate pizza and I just can look, pitiful T.T
Tonight 16 adult tickets sold ^.^Y

Intended

Hmmmm, I chatted with KJ this morning, about the badminton court thingy.
And went to exam afternoon, saw his legs and I knew he was there.
I did not look at him at all...
I just controlled myself, not to look at him...
Then when entered the hall, he was in front me, and I kinda wanted to distant from him, he went away and I faster walked into the hall...
Smelled his cologne, and GX also agreed with me, said he put high intensity cologne, can smell him even he is far high up in lecture hall.
We chose our seats and then he was coming in, behind us, took a peek on him finally.
And he chose to sit left to Cindy, in front of GX, and I was behind Cindy, Lyn in front of Cindy.
The hall is so big, and why he picked a seat that was near to me =.=
Known that I will attract to him again =.=
He really intended to play with me =.=
And not brave to look at him even so near the distance...
When he was not noticed, quickly took a peek on him...
And one disgusting thing about him, he really a dirty boy, do not know to bring tissue paper.
His running nose never cure >.<
I think he must be think that he is strong and always drink cold drinks.
That is not good for health, he is strong outside and weak inside =.=
His future girlfriend or wife should cook hot soup for him, and limits him not to drink cold drinks!!!
Then he went out of done his paper.
First thing came out from my mind, "Is him idiot??"
Cause in university level, who finished the paper faster, who the one with lesser knowledge, hahahaha!!!

Evening went to see drum...
Saw him came out from the car carried bamboo...
He was the one who drove??
I like him although he always just show his back to me...

And Chris become lame and lame, =.=
His words really cold...
And the latest drum generation really no spirit, very down...

Then Gary requested to have a photo with me and Lawrence during CCN >.<
Why so sudden??

I went for jogging for 1 round, took me only 15mins~~~ Yuhhuuuu~~~

Body

I gave up to be slim, now I just want to keep fit..
My stamina dropped!!!
Even 1 round only I felt tired!!!!

By the way, today I only went to watch drum practice.
And saw Lawrence body shape.
Not bad, got butts got chest, haha!!!

He got trained before and now not free to maintain it.
I think his proportion not bad, and he got a standard body shape, not train also nice.

Just he is wearing colored contact lens, like what Ming Ming said, wearing colored contact lens very fake.

So, I think he is very gay >.<

And Chris become more and more lame and poisonous mouth >.<

Lokk away

True..

Follower

Ken said they always have dinner at PrimaInn and have Tutti Frutti as their dessert..
So, just now went to PrimaInn for lunch and Tutti Frutti for air cond >.<

Arrgghhh!!
Want buy chocolate, but scared fat...
Actually I do not mind the money, I have a lot of junk food in my cupboard now, can I eat them??

And I saw him online when I just on, and now he hides his online status =.=

Scared of me so much???

Pre-CCN

Went to see QC and flow of CCN.
Saw him...

And I like to watch performance with my same "high" friends!!!

Although we become the center of attention =.=

My brain keep remind of Ken's theory
1. Guy who can say something and make a girl always remember what he said is success to make the girl missing him

2. Guy who show his gentleman to a girl and pretend that he always doing that.

3. People can talk very sweet but actually he do not like the girl.

He did the first one.
I'm too weak to fall to him >.<

He did the second one to Jo, hahahaha~~~

I miss him, really >.<

Archery

Saw him, purposely went there...
And he is really cute, and always can make me laugh >.<

Then meet Ken in badminton court, he told me about his principles and his technique to flirt with girls, hahaha!!!
And his theory actually quite similar with mine, I'm a guy thinker >.<

Both his friends tell me he is not easy to get a girl friend.
He will not know if a girl like him, and he cannot put down his ego to chase a girl.

Then I played badminton, I think my strength and skills improved ^.^
And watched drum for awhile.

Awkward

T.T
I all the time looked at him, dunno people noticed or not, but me good in pretending, should be no problem, kekekeke~~~

Why I think he is good looking, people do not think so pun...

Bingo!!

I'm right and he is easy to guess. He wear blue shirt and attend to class today.
And hohohoho~~~
The girls sit behind him, muahahahaha!!!

And I not brave to talk to him...
And I think he caught me looking at him once, paiseh nia =.=
Should begin avoiding him >.<

I miss him so much!!

Campus without him

A campus without him is so bored and calm...
Looking for him when passed by the archery space *poor english =.=*
He was not be there la...

T.T
I miss him....



Saw him online on 7 something and 8 something...
He will be class tomorrow??
Will he wear blue shirt???

By the way, Lyn also stalks his facebook I think >.<
Cause she knew everything of him in facebook.

Thick Face

I sold 33 CCN tickets!!!
Hohohhoho~
Although I got so so many rejections, but I have my determination to sell the whole book of tickets!!

And did not see him today.
Where is him now??
I miss him!!

Haiz.. Recently knowing that he can play with a girl, who is another guy's girl friend...
T.T

Eat too much

T.T
I ate too much lately, now my weight is about 48.5kg, same as before I tried so hard to slim down.

If Ming Ming knows that, he sure will laugh at me, or scold me, that I did not control my food intake T.T

I like to eat ma, although my daily basal metabolic expenditure just 1090 kcal, T.T
330 kcal per meal only T.T

OMG, since when I become like Sim Leng!!!

T.T

Cheat herself

Hehe, Lyn said that she will not fall for him..
But then she was expecting him to be in badminton court.
And she told me she had bee long time did not see him >.<

Lol~~~

Friends

I want friends...
We will be friends...
We all will be good friends...
We all will be good friends forever...

I love you, you love me, we are happy family~

Bad bad bad!!!

I do not like those who touched any part of my body!!!
Do not touch my shoulders!!!

T.T

That's my boyfriend's right!!! Ok!!!

Passed

That one I thought he played me, maybe he was too sad when heard me had boyfriend that time?
Yesterday he saw me, with my hair, he cannot recognize me.
And he nicely talked to me, even accompanied me to wait Zhiling.

Last night, I went to see the dancing crew to dance, did not see him, maybe he is busying in training or what.

And there are 6 girls who like him...
Excluded me =.=
And the most important, I got jealousy from Jo, she quite does no like me close with him...
Hmmmm....

And I should let everything pass now...

Absent

He was not going to class today.
Ya, as usual, he replied me.
Just because he is free.
Ok, we are friends >.<

By the way, I received a confession just now, but he denied it, lol~~~

4th day

Today can not be excited to see him, ok??
My feeling toward him is pure? Or already mixes with bogamwan? Or other things that not supposed to be present??

By the way, I dreamt of the bad guy in my secondary life =.=
I do not want to see him anymore.

Chat

I wanna chat with him, talk with him, I miss him...
Even if just 2 or 3 sentences...

I miss him...
Ming ming...
Ming ming....
Ming ming...
Ming Ming...
Ming Ming...
Ming ming...


I miss you...

Silly

Went to lecture hall and had half an hour class.

And felt satisfy cause can look at him after class...

T.T
Went class just to see him >.<

No medicine to cure already...

Scorpio

【什么是天蝎想要的老公】
1，聪明乐观，偶尔可以纸制品包装装傻;
2，稳重豁达，遇事儿可以给老婆分忧，让老婆开怀;
3，有责任心有耐心，不让老婆伤心;
4，不需要浪漫，只需要你懂得她的心。
5，就算老婆口是心非，也要知道老婆心里想的究竟是什么;
6，不要太大男子主义，但要爱能护老婆一辈子;
7，健康长寿。

Busy

He will not reply my message anymore??

Charming

He sets the charming hair again, I think he quite bothers by his curly hair.
He likes this kind of hair~
So today I kept looking for him...
He wears purple today.
He chased the doctor incharged for our elective, hahahaha!!! So cute!!!

I learnt to keep my feeling now, to avoid any weird situation.

I can, I sure can!!

Silly

Met him at the sport center, and made him angry with me again.

Then went to buy daily stuffs, actually I know he will be somewhere outside.

So I met him, in Mydin, and I lost my mind, blanked mind at the moment and after the moment saw him...

And took peeks on him when he was near the cashier counter...

My ex-roomate boyfriend passed away on 29 Feb 2012.
Things always happen unexpected.
Should cherish people when they are still available..

Second day

Today also just took a peek on him, when he walked upstairs.

And tried not to look at him for second time.

Succeed.

No feeling toward him already.

A peek

Did not expect him to attend class today.
Although knowing that the day before yesterday he just came back from UTM.
He did not rest and straight away come back to USM.
Saw him walked upstairs, just a peek.
I tried my best not to look at him anymore.
And it works.
I did not look to him for a second time.
Even when passed the timetable.
Even when we walked down after class.
Even his photos on his wall.

I miss him, but not allowed to miss him.

Funny

I think back what Lyn told me yesterday.
That day was his birthday, I wished him."
Then Lyn asked him is it his birthday on that day, what he replied was "I dunno."
Hahahahaaa, he scared of people wishing him??

He is weird, ya, he is.

School

He is not in campus, and I cant find him in facebook.

Feel so sad and it is just my problem.

Huuuu....
I feel so down.

Blockage

Although I gave him the idea to block me, but when he really blocked me, I feel sad...

He will not reply me when I miss him, when I need him...

He will not reply me anymore...

Boyce Avenue

He said he can sing like him...

And so I searched for his songs and imagined he is singing to me.

Although I not believe that he can sing as good as him, hahahahaa!!!

By the way, he blocked me as what he said.

I think if this situation continues until after CCN, I would unfriend him again, and never ask him to add, and will not add him, even he adds me back. Actually blocked me is the better solution right?

Do not make that so obvious.


Whatever I do is the extreme decision, not good not good T.T

Today will be the last day.

3001

3001...

3 months, and this is the end.

Someone like you

A guy who really care of you, will hear everything you said and will make efforts to achieve or prove what you want, what you think, is either right or wrong.

The caring not necessary just related to lovership, can be friendship or waiting-ship.

Everyone does things for purposes. I never deny this.
But at least you can know, he is trying to make some efforts.

My first love, was not easy. He is the first guy I confessed to, and being rejected.
See, pathetically.

But he said, how a guy will "layan" a girl if he did not have feeling on that girl.
That time, I was really thinking that he just treated me as little sister.

This time, I thought another guy who "layan" me, has feeling toward me.
But the truth is, he treated me as little sister.

Like what WC said, relationship has no "past year exercise", do not think that you have experiences, and you actually will still do not know what the guy thinks, cause everyone not the same.

Out of topic already..

Today when I went swim, and my friend accompanied me the whole week, except when he not free or raining, we swam for 5 days, and actually he did not swim much.
What he did the most was, be my coach, life jacket, and safety guard, yea, he is really a responsible and caring guy.
I can tell that he cares of me, no matter with purpose or without.
There are some reasons if someone treats another one good, but did not take extra actions.
Like me, I defined my hometown friend as no-gender-friend.

So, the important thing here is, his actions taught me that, if a guy really cares of you, you will not need to emphasize whatever you want him to know, and he will take notes from the daily conversations, and does some changes.

Still missing him

I do not want to stalk him, but still I cant hold what I promised to myself.
Cause just now I checked his wall, and opened his friend's blog, writing about their friendship.
And, I feel satisfy by just looking at his photos with his friends..
Smile when watched his smile and laughter in the photos...
His friend's name just a little bit different from me, the middle name, but prettier and sexier much much more!!!
I am too simple.

When you like someone, he or she will be the only one who appears in your sight, makes the scenes...

He said he never has a scene, I think that is because he never meet someone who can remain in his mind...