Full Dress Rehearsal

Went to the main hall to help, actually nothing I can do for them...
Talked to may people to show people I really can talk to different people...

Saw him...
Avoided him for many times...
Although I kept peeking on him...
But got a few times that we were closed to each other >.<
When he passed by my seat, when we crossed over in front toilet, when I walked to take green bean soup, when we accidentally met and I said "Yo"...




I can smell his cologne and feel his presence...
I should not do like this!!!


He was busy, walked in and out of the hall, I kept finding him...
Taught Lawrence the way to act, and finally I felt that is difficult task, hahahahaa!!!
And Lawrence really likes to touch people =.=

How I can feel he was searching for me too??
This is some kind of misunderstanding right?

He always appear in front me, or maybe I'm observing him too much??

He passed by my seat, while there is a large space to go...
I walked to the green bean soup station, and he co-incidentally walked there too, and I turned away when I saw him... And suddenly Ken shouted my name and chatted with me...
When I said "Yo" to him cause we met face to face, unavoidable, he was not satisfied with me..
I think I should not say anything to him anymore, cause he is unhappy with me talking to him.

Watched his dance, I wanted to just focus on him, but hmmmm....
I think SN told HT about him...
And he joked about "small eyes guy", I'm dead.
He knew it.
I hate myself of can not keep own secret.
I think the whole school will know slowly.
And that time, he will really hates me.

I can do as I ignore him, I can pretend that I do not care of him.
And I need more time to quit searching for him, looking at him, caring of him...
Soon soon, I will success.

So, peoples, I already being rejected, do not create more harm to me, just keep this as a imaginary story, or forget this story.
I'm now trying so hard to erase my false feeling, to correct the situation, to maintain friendship.
Do not keep reminding me, so that I will not over-think.
Please keep your mouth shut, your words just hurting me more.
He does not like me, even if I tell the whole world that I like him, or I admit that I like him from your questioning, do not struggling to get the answer and the truth.
If you are the kind of people like to see other hurt, then please force me to answer you.

Then I will tell that, I like him and he told me that I'm just a little sister for him...
I'm not his type, and ya, I was rejected.