Connected

I knew what he is thinking already.
He observed me the day we went for his birthday celebration.
I was bullying Lyn cause I knew everything I ask her to do in front him, she will do it for me even ordinary day she will not.
I think this is why he said my friends all tolerate with me.
Lol, if this is the incidence he took for reference, then I have nothing much to say.
I thought he was observing through normal days and that is why I did not deny it because it might be true, but I seriously look down of him if he ignored my tolerance to everyone in normal life and think me as a bad girl.
I do not need someone who cannot differentiate whether I am that kind of person or I am playing, or I am pranking.
He rather to appreciate girls who hide their true self in front him*I am saying generally girls will pretend nice in front of guys who they admire*, and mask who they really are.
While I like to do something that oppose what guys will like, and make myself even worse than the one who I really am, in front of the guy I admire.
I just hope the guy can see through me and find out the real me and believe that I am not that kind of girl I acted I am.
Yes, this is difficult, but it is the challenge I gave to the only one, this is my defense mechanism to filter the right guy who sincere to me.

I do not care now how he thinks about me, cause he failed the task.
And I do not need a guy who does not understand me.