Begin to understand

我竟然没有调头 最残忍那一刻

静静看你走 一点都不像我

原来人会变得温柔 是透澈的懂了

爱情是流动的 不由人的

何必激动着要理由

相信你只是怕伤害我 不是骗我

很爱过谁会舍得

把我的梦摇醒了

宣布幸福不会来了

用心酸微笑去原谅了 也翻越了

有昨天还是好的

但明天是自己的

开始懂了 快乐是选择

I searched for his car when I passed by the guy's block, cause Layfen drove there to get something.

When we walked passed the field, I saw his car, and I knew it is his car, but I need to confirm it, so I looked at the driver, it's him.

While I just turned away once I saw he looked to my direction too.

Then Layfen told me that he brought a girl out.

But she did not see who is she.

"It's ok, dont be sad" teased Layfen.

Although she does not know anything, she just played with me.

The song suits my feeling now~

Unbelievable that I did not turned away, at the most cruel moment,

Quietly watched you walked away, it does not act like me at all.

Finally realized people will turn gentle, when crystal clearly understand something,

Love is ventilable, not decisive by human,

Why should I want an excuse badly?

I believe that you just scared to hurt me, not lied me.

Who dare if he loved before,

Wake me up stopping me from dreaming,

Announce that my happiness will not ever going to happen.

With sorrow I smiled and forgave, and overcame it,

It is still good to have past.

But the future is mine,

I begin to understand,

Happiness is decisive.

Silly diary:

He did not attend to lectures, but he appeared for clinical teaching.

He looked at Carmen with his big opened eyes, while I noticed that because I stood beside her.

I looked away again, I still refused to know how he likes the other girls.

I think I should learn to accept it, by not turning to any other direction, and continue with my activities.