Predictable

I had my PBL separated with him, as I know, I will never have chance to be together with him.
I went back to do laundry.
I am in down mood the whole morning.
And I had a talk with Liyana last night, and I found the fact that guys who dated her always pay for her.
So I decided to set my own rule.
Who wishes to ask me out, I will ask them to pay, or else I will not be out.
Not that I am a greedy bitchy girl, but it can act as a barrier to whom not sincerely ask me out, and if he passed this test, saying that he is willing to pay, then I will out and pay by my own.
When I walked back to school, I had an instinct that I can have a lunch with him.
I reserved the time to have lunch with my friends, thus will have a late laundry(since I need the sun).

When I reached the hall, Lyn asked me about the PBL, and I acted and replied happily but actually I am happy with the exam date change.
Then I asked them about lunch, and they showed me the embarrass shy faces.
Cindy told me she asked Lyn already about yesterday incident, and it is not her.
(And I saw my hands shaking all along that conversation)
I do not why that they were making the conversation like planned, and they scared of my responses.
Then I can guess with their expressions, they are going out later, so I said I will go back and cook maggie.
But I do not know why, they asked me calm down while they were the one who smiled shyly until the eyes also can not see, the mouth can not tell anything.
Then they said there is another one else.
Then?
She said Cindy and then told that sorry that I am not invited.
So?
Any difference if I say "I go back and cook maggie" before or after she telling me this?
Lyn said: "Suak, next time do want tell you edi."

Oh ya, because he asked you for lunch, and you are the one who incharged who to invite right?
I mean, Lyn became the hostess while I am the one who is not invited, according to her.

Lyrics which suit my mood now.

很多事情　不是誰說了就算

即使傷心　結果還是自己擔

多少次失望表示著多少次期盼

事實證明　幸福很難

我們之間　不是誰說了就算

拉扯的愛　徒增結局的難堪

一百次相愛只要有一次的絢爛

下一次　會更勇敢

當冬夜漸暖　當大海也不再那麼藍

當月色的純白變得陰暗

那只是代表快樂不再那麼簡單

當冬夜漸暖　當夏夜的樹上不再有蟬

當回憶老去的痕跡斑斑

那只是因為悲傷從來　都不會有答案

當冬夜漸暖　當青春也都煙消雲散

當美麗的故事都有遺憾

那只是習慣把愛 當作喜歡

重要的是　我們如何愛過那一段