OMG!!!
Arrggghhhh, useless useless useless!!!
I was reluctant to go to the third PBL, cause I did not know what the doctor will ask.
Well, the doctor told dirty jokes in the PBL, but sometimes he can be informational.
While CKM get shot by the doctor gao gao!
Asked him to ask Lyn about color of menses fluid, asked him to ask Fatin the types of pad, asked him to ask Amu the days of menses, asked him to ask Wirdah whether she had menstrual pain.
>.<
Luckily I did not get these questions...
I saw his face is really cute, he was shy and embarrassed. Lyn tried to give him some supportive stares, sometimes he just ignored her.
I laughed because he got shot.
Maybe just like what I had read in FB before, when a girl likes a guy, her laughter can easily trigger by the guy.
The doctor teased him that he can be urologist because he does not know anything about female.
The doctor showed him the middle finger, teased him with everything, maybe the doctor hates him because he envied of CKM, hahahaa~~
After PBL, I went to toilet, because I had urge and I do not want to talk to him.
But even I came out from toilet already, they did not talk about it yet.
Lyn asked me on or not, I did not want to say anything, luckily MY and YY said on on on.
Then she hinted me to tell him, but I insisted not to say anything, and showed her the whatever face and hinted her to tell him.
Then I went back to take my bag, actually I can follow Lyn and CKM out of the room, but I rather wasting time, walked slow, stayed in the room and waited for MY and YY, so that I will not need to talk to him.
I saw Lyn talked to CKM- I was blurred and blanked all time after that, excited state or what...
What appeared in my mind is- CKM looked at Lyn and asked "Now arr??", took out his phone and looked at the time, and considered whether he has other more important things to do, and suddenly he smiled(brightly) and turned to me and said "Ok!".
I was blanked cause he was smiling happily. I was shy to look at his face, again I thought he was waiting for me, and I showed him 2 fingers and said 2 more in the room, with sight away from him.
Amu dragged me away, while I wanted to wait for the two in the room, I reluctant to do so, I wanted to stay beside him too, but lastly Lyn be the one who stayed beside CKM...
It is always Lyn who accompanies him, while I am not allowed to stay beside him.
I am not the hostess.
I got a feeling, that he likes me, but this feeling is not reliable, fragile and might not real.
They finally walked out to the lobby and I thought not much of us will go to SR.
But Imran successfully hold Iki, that's why all the other Malay girls stayed back and we walked to SR together.
I spoke out loud that Imran will be a nice husband(Joke from the doctor that Imran will be O&G specialist), while I saw him busy with his phone, may I guess that he was texting to someone said that he will be busy.
I tried to find a place for myself beside him but I always fail, hahahaa~
No space for just me and him. No chance to walk with him. (Except in the later part.)
I was blurred cause my mind only focused on him...
What I see might not what I see, what I heard might be not be heard, all were his images and voices.
I crossed the road with Lyn, hold her arm, while I do not know whether she think I made her can not walk with him, hahahaa! I am too childish.
I walked toward the cakes, and I was choosing which to eat.
He walked in directly asked Lyn to order Chocolate Indulgence, I think one of his favorite things is chocolate. *He shouted a few times that chocolate indulgence the best, taste nice, hinted Lyn to remember his favorite cake is it?*
(Lyn told me that he does not eat cake when I suggested to go SR, but I saw him ate a chocolate cake in cafe when he was lunch with us, maybe she knows him more, he told her before.)
He is quite not gentle, cause he is the type of guy who will ask girl to order food for him and conveniently sit there.
So, I will never believe that he is that type of boyfriend who serves his girlfriend.
He might the type of ask girlfriend to queue for fast food, order for food and serve him like a babysitter.
Where goes the type of guys who will ask girls to sit down, and orders food for girls, serves the girls??
I met two gentlemen before, while he is not one of them.
I asked the waitress whether there is Chocolate Strawberries, but it was out of stock.
The waitress actually imitated my style and played with me, hahahahaa~~
I had been abnormal since he turned back and smiled and said yes to SR.
Then I cannot think properly, cannot talk properly, actions were exaggerated.
When I chose a seat, I told Lyn in chatbox before to sit near him and beside her, but Amu asked me sit with her which was quite far from him.
I might just follow the fate but later MY asked me sit inside and Amu followed me.
As usual I sat in front and diagonally with him.
In front of me was Imran but later changed to Wirdah.
Once I sat down, they were discussing about understanding female, I said the easiest way is just find a girlfriend.
Lyn told Imran that it is not to late to have one since eleven years onward only he will be the specialist.
I was blurred then...
I remembered the waiter served the cakes, and I showed my interest to cakes.
My sign showed when I needed to pass the cakes and drinks, also the sugars.
I tried to calm myself but I saw my hands shaking, and I did not know how to stop it!!!!
Even when I hold my fork for cakes, when I stirred my tea!!!!
CKM regret to have coffee, asked if can change to tea.
I think this is because Lyn only asked him about coffee, while I will only asked for tea.
Next time I shall ask him "Coffee or tea?", hahahahahahahaa!!!
We talked about lot of things.
Then MY asked me about the gift, then I took my red-ribbon-mandarin-orange out and gave him.
Of course everyone will surprised included him, and I was too shy to look to his face, I just looked away pretended talking to Amu or the others when he wanted to throw the orange to me. Maybe he thought of Chap Gor Meh?
Although I had that meaning of "Pau Gam" but I do not think anyone noticed it.
He took photo of the orange then put it aside.
Mean he used to take photos of everything he did, he received, he played, and he does not uploaded it in FB.
Maybe he wanted to share it with someone in other days.
I took smaller piece of red ribbon and tied it on Lyn's finger.
She challenged me and now she did not willing to co-operate.
Then I gave up.
I have no ideas with what I said and what I did that time, now.
I had lost my mind...
I ate my cake, black forest cheese, Amu's strawberries marshmallow, Fatin's chocolate walnut, Fifah's chocolate indulgence, Wirdah's carrot cheese and Lyn's macademia cream cake.
When Amu said her brother can bake a very nice carrot cake, I told her can I marry him, and she said she does not want me to be her sister-in-law.
When they tried my cake, they said it is sweet sour, while I do not taste anything sour.
I wondered whether I had changed?
Since when I can accept sour food?
Since when I do not feel sour at all??
I said: "I had turn to a girl?" "Now I become a girl already."
And he teased me that I should go check my genome and also teased me with the LMP. =.=
After Lyn tasted it and said that it was not that sour...
I should try blueberry cheese cake to test am I really changed.
CKM said his knee spent RM38K.
While he said when he was in the wad, the nurse called him Junpyo???!!!
Totally different!!!
He said another name is Lee Minho.. =.=
And he likes if people said him as Lee Minho or Kim Junkok...
OK, Fifah did told me that he looks alike KimJunkok while I look alike his RM girlfriend, Eun Hye.
OK, I said before in fb with YT that his character much alike the Meteor Garden character but I meant the Taiwanese version one, Jerry Yan: unicellular organism, pretend bad but actually good boy.
Junpyo version I never think before, hahahaaa~~
By the way, luckily I know he can not read Chinese, or else I will think that he read my blog before~
Lol~~
Then he said he is like the character in Flower Boys, yea, childish, rich, spend like billionaire.
Later he opened his gift(the mandarin orange) as if he is very happy, and I sang him HB song alone, while then I realized no one sang together with me, so I stopped.
He peeled the orange and shared some with us.
(He is very polite and caring that he will accept happily whatever he received especially in his first year birthday, hahahaa!!!)
Again I felt stupid cause again I saw my hand shake vigorously, and I shame with it, arrgghhh!!!
No one notice tight right right??!!
He complained that the orange is unwanted one, not good taste, even Amu said that because that is too sweet and not sour at all.
Then CKM said he is considering my feeling, that's why he ate the orange or what, I was blurred and I can not remember what he said? (Too excited)
I was so confused and nervous that I cant understand what he said too.
Again, if he really can read Chinese, I highly suspect he read my blog and I posted the lyrics before... =.=
I did showed my tongue to him twice, once because he saw me ate a lot and second when I said he got narcissistic personality disorder while he replied I have bipolar mania. =.=
Then I noticed my tea cup was not clean, I asked Lyn to change for me, I looked at her pitifully, dependent and. She helped me without asking me to do it by myself, hahahahaha~ First time because she had no choice in front of CKM.
I started to tie the red ribbon on Lyn's wrist when she returned and she just can not co-operate with me, hahahahaaaa~
Then he used the red ribbon to tie on Iki's blackberry, and pretended it was his presents.
YY finally joined us with her layered cakes, then I put all the cakes in front me and him, started to eat.
He surprised with my appetite and teased me as TamJiak.
I think he was surprised too when I arranged the cake in front of him, actually I planned to sing the HB song with the cakes but no one understand my actions.
While finally we sang a song for him, he shouted his name loudly, letting the whole world know we were celebrating his birthday.
He is cute like that, and I did not sing loud as I planned to do so, as I do not feel comfortable to act like I am happy to celebrate with him, especially when I think he probably only like to hear Lyn sings for him. (Jealousy)
While Iki asked who planned this, I think CKM scared to letting people know it was Lyn, and he said he planned for everything for his own birthday celebration.
I showed my kiddie attitude, while eating, talking, and teasing.
I did not show feminine side of me.
I do not want to compete a guy with my friend.
Maybe I competed with her before, but once she told me that she likes him, from that moment, I have to pay my responsible.
I hate this kind of feeling, that is why I acted before she admitted it, and I got a negative result.
I must keep reminding myself, not to be a bitch who took friend's boyfriend and hurt her.
I did not bring my camera, cause I know I will be crazily taking his photo if I did.
Is it love?
Or just an idol admiration?
Lastly, he asked us whether we pay for him, and he said thank you.
Then someone teased him to pay and later he really pay for us.
Again it just matches my rule that I set a few days ago.
This is the first outing after I made the wish, and the wish came true~
And I did a pre-booking for 1 year, and I got to celebrate his birthday this year.
Although we had this treatment most probably because of Lyn, hahahaaa~~
And he is the first guy I met that who pay for others during his birthday celebration.
I said before if he treats girls for meal, then he really likes that girl.
Perhaps Lyn?
Hahahaa~~
I shouted to Imran: "Dont leave me alone!" to make people feel awkward.
I should stop this kind of attitude cause it actually hurts myself only.
When we walked back to USM, he tried to walk with me, but later I do not know how, Amu came walked with me and squeezed me to his side when the path is norrow, I have no choice cause I do want do the same with Lyn, I do not want to touch him like I give myself away.
So I changed place with Amu, then Amu walked between us...
We got separated after then, and after we crossed the road, I felt that he did not walk with Lyn.
I actually peeked on him, he was chasing my steps. And finally walked with me for a while.
I planned to walk slowly to wait him, but the awkward thing is I do not want myself to act like Lyn.
I do not want to be another Lyn, I do not want to be the same with other girls.
I hate this feeling.
Then I asked him whether his knee pain, and complained that my height will always be the shortest.. T.T
I reached hostel, then I went to Cindy room.
I told her some funny things, and she told me that day Amu did not go for lunch with them.
Joe drove and CKM sat in front.
Lyn did not ask me to join even there was another seat.
Even Cindy felt weird, but she was the guest, and she has no right to invite me.
(Maybe they can have double date?)
Then Cindy said maybe Lyn does not feel comfortable with me.
That I will tease her whenever she touched CKM or flirted with CKM.
Cindy said even she sat behind, but she sat near with CKM and straggled his neck, played with him a lot.
Good for them.
I regret that I helped her to make that conversation to celebrate CKM's birthday.
And I just realized that she said he hinted the whole car, I thought there were Amu, Yeeliong, while now I felt cheated.
Because, there were Joe, Lyn, CKM and Cindy only on the car.
Hahahaa, girl's friendship is fragile. When friendship can threaten relationship, she will just let go her friendship.
While I believe that something will happen if three people always stick together, either light bulb or third party.
The is no right and no wrong, just it is hard to believe that it happened to me too.
By the way, my toothpaste is safe cause I actually haven't unseal it XD
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