Emo

I am emo today.
Because academic, financial, and very little of CKM.
My presentation and actually the important one is my pro exam.
I want to go Thai but I scared of my timetable changes...
I can not bear another failure.
And I just realized youngster in these 2 decades most likely to have their own life.
My extension brought some problems to my family.
I should not plan so much trips.
I thought we were in a raise.
But actually nope.
I need to save.

Saw CKM photos of celebration after having cakes with us.
He went to Ritz with dental girls and some guys.

Of course they paid for him according to their comments.
While they did not tag him in photos.
Maybe he got the aura of "Dun tag me in your photos"?
While he had buffet at Tao today, do not know with who.
I guessed it always will be some girls beside.

He enjoyed life very much.

Well, I went to watch Yamato's drum performances.
It was highly influential that they spread their joys to the audiences, they showed they really love what they are doing.
Japanese is a race which shows a great cooperation and good relationship between people.
When will this attitude becomes universal?

While I watched this show, I was thinking of Jambu.
He will like this.
And I think of Jambu when I need to travel alone.
He is the one I can think of when I need help, I felt helpless...
But I can not find him anymore.

Yes, I am dependent, and I compensated it by expressing my feeling, my helplessness here.
No one knows how I wish I can go Thai, and those who know will ask me not to think to much and just go.
No one understands how bad my academic is, and those who know will ask me to study hard.

There my another weakness, lazy.