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Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Voice

I heard a deep voice, thought was him, but actually Daniel.
I suddenly remembered the word "ignorant", now I know the meaning, 无知.
Mean I am a person who is not knowledgeable, narrow minded, and still do not know about own defects.

Ok, I accept.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Falling down

I was stalking his online status.
Thursday he still online, but off until Monday.
We had a short holiday, although he needed to clerk case, but he went back too.
He told Lyn all this while where he went, what he did.
Even clinical teaching information, he did not send me.
He sent others.
I did not receive any news, but I knew there was a teaching, he said it, I remembered it.
Saw him wearing formal shirt that not usually wear, maybe it is day of presentation.
Lyn bakes cakes and treated us. Another box was for PBL.
When we were in cafe, he was at opposite table, facing me, that I can conveniently see him.
He ate very fast, and he did not look at anyone.
Even the dental gang did not sit with him.
He probably nervous for the presentation.
He leaved and he called Lyn.
Informed her by calling and not to be rude, he asked Lyn to tell me too.
We walked to the department, he was waiting for other members.
His backlighting background image is charming.
And he asked about others who could not find place, and who did not receive message.
"I dont get." I said.
And I put down my bag, walked to the toilet.
After I coming out of toilet, I lost...
I did not know where I have to go.
Then I saw Wirdah and Amu, they too did not know, hahahahaa!!!
Luckily Lyn came out for toilet and we went inside the department.
I was not comfortable to share same space with him anymore.
I kept going in and out, fetching Fifa, stayed away from them but looked at him through the image reflected on the glasses of the office.
Lyn distributed the cakes, and the chocolate cakes was really nice.
He refused to eat, although she pursued him, convinced him.
I think she must be very disappointed.
And Wirdah said he did not consume the cupcakes she made the other day too.
I thought he just want to appear good in front of the doctor because eating cakes that can easily stay on his teeth especially on his braces.
When inside the meeting room, I looked for a seat that not closed to the doctor, either sides, and as usual, another condition is not next to him.
I looked at him as much as I can, cause this is the chance.
He being shoot by the doctor, actually the doctor is nice and he did not care about the case.
He taught us the skills of history taking.
After all, Lyn again distributed all her cakes to all of us.
Again she asked him to eat, and I was watching.
I wondered will he eat, and actually my heart was hanging high because actually I do hope he will not eat it...
He rejected again and he asked whether she made it or bought it.
He said he does not trust the food that people made.
Oh ya, he rejected my food before too.
Obviously, he was happy yesterday.
He stayed until the very end of our gathering inside the department.
With smiling face.

Today, I was lazy to go to class.
I did not study for 3 months already.
And when I went in the tutor room, I saw Lyn and him talked in Mandarin.
They were happily interacting to each other.
I could not stand the environment.
There is a little world between them.
I went to clean the whiteboard.
I pretended to sleep.
I was not looking at them.
He was talking in Malay too.
They were competing their language abilities.
He sang a Malay song chorus, the "Cinta Tiga Segi"
He was imitating her slang, he was trying his best to tease her, with cooperation of Imran.
I smile, I laughed, but I was in my effort to not listening to him, not pay my focus on him.
He said he will treat YY and MY.
Because they were going to take our PBL triggers.
I was picked by YL to present the seminar, that I do not like to talk in public.
Sadly, I have to do it, because the one who said he wanted to present, changed his mind now.
And without seeing the situation, Lyn asked me why I am emo in public.
That I need to become a fake individual who said :"I am sleepy."
Then during the PBl, his turn of pretending to be sleepy.
I was the scriber, it was tiring to sit, walk, write and I think I hurt my body by playing badminton vigorously, without warm up and without proper shoes. 
When we picked our learning issues, I was tiring standing.
And YL said about the Titanic famous posture, and I pointed Lyn and him who standing together to do it.
They were so slow in choosing learning issues...
I asked him to write by himself of my impatient to wait for him, and he wanted me to service him by writing his name on board.
I know that is my responsibility but he was too slow and I was too tired...
Can him just let me go?
Lastly, I went out without Lyn to buy notes.
And he chose another path to Murni so that we would not meet.
Nice and fine!!!
I admit I got find for him and, I am hurt.
He, doesnot care at all, right?

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Day dreaming

I was running to chase YY because I did not bring my matrik card.
Lyn, Ming, Imran were there already. Same scene happened, Lyn was in her effort to get his newspaper.
He gave Imran instead although he did not ask for it, but pointed to the newspaper.
I knew it because Imran told us on the way back hostel.
Same episode, I avoided them by cleaning the whiteboard, going out of the room to wash my hands.
I had nothing to do.
I tried not to look at them.
He was talking to her, telling her something, that he will not go back this week because he needs to clerk case. He told her that he wants to go back next weekend.
He told her about his plan of presenting case.
Doctor came and we discussed our learning issues.
I was day-dreaming.
He hinted me to proceed.
Actually I was waiting others to settle the previous learning issue.
I felt he was like happy or what??
He felt amused because I was day-dreaming???
Actually I was avoiding to see him that time.
When he is explaining, he is charming.
With his confident, with his fluent talking, because everything is already inside his brain.
That is my only way to look at him directly.
But he was not looking to me during his explanation.
He avoided me too...
He showed his interest in Orthopedic and now I only know.
He looked at me sometimes to get agreement from me.
Maybe I am the one who always support YL in his explanation.
But I only day-dreaming during Ming's explanation.
Because I was distracted by his voice, his actions...
At last, he wanted to add on his explanation.
He mentioned about the EXTRA function of internal fixation of fracture.
It is to let the bone grow longer, to increase height.
Everyone were looking at me, Imran and Lyn...
Ming too, he with his teasing smile, does not know who he laughing of...
I was embarrassed and smile with embarrassment..
Plus some threatening tone of voice.
Finally I get smiles by his words...
That I thought I will never get amusement from him...
That I will forever being ignored by him.
That I will not be the subject in his conversation...
He was walking with us after the PBL.
That he did not do for so long already,
He finally put down the prejudice on me.
Ah Giam and I wondered, why I am the one who actually being dumped but he acted like he is the one??
Maybe he really feel weird with my presence...
I even avoided or pretended that I was day-dreaming when I realized that our sight might be met, to hide my direction of sight.
I will work harder to hide everything.
Jealousy, owning him, sadness.


P/S: Maybe he just think his body still not yet in his perfection, that's why he rejected the offer of modeling. And will accept when he satisfied with his body??

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Underwear model

Just saw his post about his friend invited him to be a model.
*Muahahahahaha*
If he really be model, I think I will unhappy with that, hahaha!!!
Imagine so many girls look at him and drool, imagine he spreads his pheromones to other girls.
Can not stand...

Luckily he rejected....
But do not know whether he will accept if his friend keeps pursue him??
Then he will be the same type as Meaw, lol~~~~

He is such a stranger...
I am not the one who always be with him, knowing his everything.
The brand of ice cream he lies to eat, the type of durian he likes, the food he likes, the cloth he likes, his styles of sleeping...
It is just a kind of curious only??

Dirt On Cloth

Today exam, I cant answer well, I do not understand the questions, hahaha~~
Although I studied like 6 hours already.
Then I went to toilet and wrote my name down, I think everyone who passed by would kepo and see the name... =.=
I fast fast filled up all the answers and went for toilet, as what I can predict, he is the first leave the exam hall with minimum exam time.
He disappeared when I came back, he was 2 seats left of me, 1 seat in front me.
Then I saw he was on the way to cafe, I wanted to go cafe too.
So I waited Cindy them and ate an egg roti canai, can not stand la we had lectures until 1pm.
I took some peeks on him.
Lyn and me went to ate Nasi Kak Wok, and went back to our tutor room.
Imran and YL were there cause they forgot the class starts late.
Then I saw Lyn and him interacted well, and I can not stand...
I do not like to see, I feel drowning...
My feeling stronger and stronger...
I rather went out of the room to avoid this... To calm myself down.
And when I went back, I pretended that I did not hear anything and I did not turn my head to them, at all.
We moved to opposite to hear the presentation, and I stood behind Fatin, never want to get closer if need my initiative.
I smelled his scent, and not only me, all the other girls did.
It is impossible that Lyn does not fall for him.

And in the mean time, I saw his cloth with dirt, hahahaha!!!
How long he did not send the formal shirt to laundry shop already?
He wants to create a feeling that his shirt is stretched because of his muscles, but we all know that it is because he did not send the cloth for laundry, that is why the cloth is uneven with wrinkles.

I called his name, for so long did not hear by him and me, to ask which learning issues he chooses.
And he waited for someone, when the PBL was ended, he did not walk away instead he stood in front of the door.
Maybe he wanted to wait for someone, who he forgotten that he isolated her for so long, and now she would not think that he will stand there and wait for her anymore. And when he finally realized that the girl he waited no longer the same, he walked away.

And I waved to him when he turned away, that I really wanted to say goodbye to him, and he has no chance to see it.
And I knew Lyn saw it, and I think it is weird for her, cause I did not talk to him for so long, and she may wonder that am I chatting with him in facebook again and did not tell her.


Sleeping pig
Acting cool


"Why I should do this kind of gay thingy?"

A series of photos taking showed he is very cute and wanna protect himself from sexual harassment 


Personal Favorite

Hyperactive
Underwear modelling
His friends and I like this smile, not faking~

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Energetic

He was attending class today.
He can absorb everything during lecture, this is what I can not achieve.
I was sleepy and I just hear but can not merge all what I had learnt together.
Then I tried to read notes during the gap, he was sitting down and playing with his new phone??
Jo and him attended the same class, for the first time.
And all girls who fancy him in same classroom, total 6 of them. One is lucky enough to sit nearby him. Lol~~
I did the suturing and it is not easy T.T
Especially the knot thingy...
Then I saw his photo in the newspaper about his burger competition, he did not get any prize but I saw he wrote that he was the 4th winner.
Finished almost 2kg of burger.

During clinical teaching, finally I got a chance to stand beside him for 5 minutes, that I did not struggle for that, it occurred naturally. And I pretended normal and ignored him.
We were not close enough that I can not smell his scent.

The last, I asked a question about my learning issue in PBL, and I was happy, actually happy because of him, and said "I done my learning issue!!"
He answered from behind, "I dont have a learning issue."
I said, "You dont go PBL also."
And we returned to silence mode and ignorance mode.

It is weird.
And I do not know how is the impact of this reply...

But conclusion, I became energetic again because of him...

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Back to Campus?

Last weekend I had been observing his onlin status, he was no online.
Now he is online, maybe came back already??
And ya, he told Lyn where he went, where he was...

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Gourmet during USMKK-ing~~

Hehehehehee, learnt this word from a senior photo album~~

My life in Kelantan is boring and what left here is EAT!!!

We got a lot of choices.

First year:

King Sum Restaurant, KFC, Kebun Sultan Food Court, Pantai Timur Chicken Chop, Big Apple Doughnut, Changmai Restaurant, Pizzahut, Billy's Cafe, Secret Household Cafe, Jin Man Lou Restaurant, YPK Restaurant, Sung Kee Chicken Rice, Up to U Cafe.

Second Year:

168 Restaurant, Love U 99 Restaurant, Ritz Restaurant, Old Place Breakfast, 303 Food Court, Prima Inn, Korean style Thai Grilled Meat, Cik Siti Chicken Chop, Pizzaria Traudi.

Third Year:

Iz koz Cafe, Red Bean Cafe, Eddlee Fried Chicken, Kenny Roger's Roaster, Golden City Bar, Tutti Frutti, Secret Recipe, Dan Jiang Vegetarian Restaurant, Ri Man Restaurant, Ju Chun Yuan Restaurant, Ozarah Cafe, Joe and Pepper Restaurant, Double Tree Restaurant, Bubble Tea Cafe.


King Sum Restaurant:
Thai Style mix with Chinese Style Food, special dishes are King Sum Steamed Fish, Monglia Chicken.
We did not go to the restaurant once it moved to new shop. Heard that it increases the dishes price and the service is not so nice.

Kebun Sultan Food Court:

Shao Bao, Yao Zha Guai, Wantan Mee that we bought back and left for dinner, Bat Kut Teh which is expensive and not nice, Fish Ball Soup which is nice, DimSum, Kuih-miuh.

Pantai Timur Chicken Chop:
One friend of friend brought us there when this restaurant still in old shop. They think the fish and chips and the chicken chop both nice and large quantity, but I do not like it. Cause the sauce is the red coloring chilli sauce, it is sweet. I never think it is delicious. Until the restaurant moves to a new, air-conditioned shop, they finally admit that the food id not nice. yjey said the taste changed not nice, but my point is, it is always like that. The quality maintained, just their taste buds became more picky.

Changmai Restaurant:
Special food are Fire Chicken which put alcohol in sauce and burn when served, Fried Pork Leg which is quite nice, Cold Sotong, Cold Chicken Claws, King Sum Steamed Fish, Fried KangKung, Fried Bees and Insects..
 
Pizzahut:

I once liked their Aglio de Olio Pasta, but now seem not delicious already and small portion.
I like Cheesy Lava Pizza too. There was a period that the Volcano Choco and Cheese Baked Rice in 50% promotion!!!
The chocolate cake is much more softer than the Gardenia Chocolate Cake, and there is a hot melted big piece of dark chocolate and a lot of almond flakes!! Yummy!!!
There were lots of ham and mushroom and sausage in the Cheese Baked Rice  and the top is full of cheese!!! But the second time I ordered, I was disappointed.
And one thing in KK Pizzahut, the cheese powder is always out of store.
During end of month, all the ingredients, toppings and others are out of stock too!!
And they still doing business unfaithfully, did not tell the costumers the condition. It is same as cheating the customers!
But because it is near, it is still in our list.


Billy's Cafe:
I went there twice. One was during Christmas. It got turkey dinner set. Turkey chop and Turkey Cheesy Chop. The cheesy one was nicer but still, both of them were quite dry and too hard to chew. The drinks are colorful and I think the taste is weird. The Garden Salad is ok, and the mushroom soup is normal.
Actually I still do not know how to taste western soups, cause I did not order for that usually~
The second time we shared an appetizer, Fried Mussel, the taste is nice, I like it very much, while the Salmon Steak costs Rm19 is lack of some fragrance, maybe they served me the body part. And there is no special sauce for the steak.
While the Fish Baked Rice, the Baked Macaroni and the chicken chop is just normal, or can say not worth it.






 
Secret Household Cafe:

People recommended that the fish finger is nice, we just went there once.
Got Grilled Dory, and others I forgot already.

Jin Man Lou Restaurant:
I went there 4 times. First is to taste the food, quite nice. Second time was the drum gathering, this time I feel the MSG is too much. Third time again the drum gathering and feel that the dishes are not nice plus expensive. Forth time was the CCN dinner and the dishes are slight better than the third time. If can choose, I will not go for the fifth time.

YPK Restaurant: 
We went for the first and the last time due to the small portion and high price. We are big eaters but they asked us to ordered for small size dishes. Then they charged us like one piece of meat about RM1, one piece of toufu RM1. Errmm, no next time, banned.

Sung Kee Chicken Rice:
This is a nice lunch. About RM6-7 per meal and we can get very very full and satisfied. There are a lot of home-styled dishes, soup, pork, Chinese sausage, luncheon meat, wow!!!

Up to U Cafe:
 
Once I like the melon fresh milk ice, but since the melon became marinated sweetened melon pieces (actually also change of owner) I do not like it anymore.
And actually I like the stewed soup, which is hot, which is nice to health, which can maintain a girl beauty, hahaha!!! But it is always not my turn to drink it cause it just serves it during weekend.
Fungus stewed with herbs, Pears stewed with fungus, Sea Coconut stewed with Longan.
I like the Black Jelly but it is bitter for me... I need a lot of syrup!!!
The other desserts, I can just cook it by myself.

168 Restaurant:
I went there twice. One we ate rice, another one we ate Hokkien Fried and Fried Rice??
We ordered for soup for the first time and I found that all the dishes are salt excess.
The second time is normal but the price not so pretty, but in range~


Love U 99 Restaurant:
This is the restaurant we always go for dinner, Chinese + Thai Style.
We like the ChaoZhou Steamed Fish, Mongolia Chicken, the Grilled Seafood there, the price is moderate.


Ritz Restaurant:
I went there for my second year drum gathering, the dishes is nice and the price is nice, but do not know why, it is not considered in the list. I think the taste is too normal.
 
Old Place Breakfast:

 When KY and ZL were going to swimming during weekend, they will go there and packed some food for lunch and dinner. There are Prawn Mee and Wantan Mee, these are the two that worth to eat.

303 Food Court:
 
I once thought that there is a stall which cooks the individual plate of dishes is nice, the soup is nice too. But maybe it did not impress us much, and there is no other good food there, so it also out of our list.

Prima Inn:
I like the Normal Fried Rice cause I like the fragrance of the egg of the fried rice!!
I like the waffles cause full of egg fragrance too!!
Now the egg fragrance is substituted with flour smell, and the jam, butter, choco, peanut butter just a little, not satisfied.
It became more and more expensive now, I banned it.

Korean style Thai Grilled Meat:
 
I went there 4-5 times~~~
The bacon and marbled pork meat and the lard are the main attractions!!
I like bacon but a lot of bacon in 1 time is too heavy, high salt, so I prefer the marbled meat.
The soup is expensive, add on for RM5, and now it is not tasty anymore. But I just feel the same, maybe my taste buds not sensitive to this. While the sotong and meats all are fresh, yet now the menu changed, so it just in consideration next time.





Cik Siti Chicken Chop:
 
I went there twice. One is Christmas and one is before my second pro exam.
I like the big glass of drink!!! Quite fun when I have a time being forced to finish this large glass of drink with my friend.
The chicken chop with large plate actually nice in the garlic bread. It is fragrance, it is crunchy.
Yet the sauce of the chicken chop a bit salty, and actually the portion is small (actually just RM7++, what more can say)
So it became none in consideration anymore.


Pizzaria Traudi:
It was nice the first time I went, it became normal during the second visit.
Due to the change of owner again???
The pizza is expensive, the dough is thin, but full of flour down and above, and the toppings are so pitiful laying so far far away from each other. I do not feel any special about the pizza except the thin dough.
The Aglio e Olio full of herbs fragrance, but I did not smell any olive fragrance.
The olive oil used is the down-most quality one- pomace
olive oil, with no fragrance and no advantage for our body. 
The salmon pasta is not better than TGI. Friday's, plus the salmon steak is too expensive, costs RM40, so I just will not go there anymore.

Iz koz Cafe: 

I went there a lot of times. I tasted Oriental Sesame Chicken, Creamy Grilled Dory, Iz Koz Grilled Lamb Chop, Mix Grill, which is large cheesy sausage, grilled lamb chops, grilled chicken chop plus the side dishes.
The Iz Koz Grilled Lamb Chop is nicer than the Lemongrass Grilled Lamb Chop, because the lemongrass covered the taste of the lamb. 

The Iz Koz Grilled Chicken Chop is not so nice, better choice is the marinated one.
I saw Fish and Chips which looked nicer then the creamy dory, because I think the grilled fish is too soft like raw...
I ate the Salmon Steak which costs me RM28.
It is grilled softly, not crispy, with creamy herbal sauce, the salmon fragrance is not covered by the sauce. They served me the belly part, there is fragrance of Omega-6 oil is really nice!!!


  
Red Bean Cafe:
I went there for take-away of the cheese cake and red bean sweet soup with tang yuan.
I like the Almond Cheese Cake, the cake body is more than the cream, so feel unsatisfying.
Another is Green Balley Cheese Cake that I do not like, and what we want is Greentea Red Bean Cheese Cake.
My friends said the Chuchuongfan is nice, the food is nice, but I never taste it before.


Eddlee Fried Chicken:
I tasted twice, both in Christmas Night, the nuggets are nice, the fried chicken is crispy!
 
Kenny Roger's Roaster:

 We went there because there is a buy one free one promotion.
The food is not nice, and there is no choice of the side dishes.
 
Golden City Bar:

We went there, my friends ordered the braised pork pizza, I ordered the fruit juice because I was really thristy. I will not go for the second time cause I do not like the environment of smoking, and people drinking beer like very fake, invited people to drink and drink only, no purpose and no aim.

Tutti Frutti:
I like the melon, lemon, green apple, passion fruit flavor, but it is very expensive T.T
 
Secret Recipe:

I like the New York Cheese Cake, Classic Cheese Cake, Creme Brulee Cheese Cake, Chocolate Indulgence Cream Cake, Cheese Choc Cake, I think I should try Raspberry Cheese Cake one day.
The Chicken Cordon Bleu is nice but now I think is too dry. The Aglio e Olio is weird with capsicum. The Carbonara with penne is nice. The Mozzarella Cheese Dory is nice but somehow too creamy, while the Mediterranean Dory is much more nicer. I like the Oreo Milk Shake, it is too nice to taste!!! And I like the Camomile Tea which is caffeine-less. 
All the other food is too expensive.  



 
Dan Jiang Vegetarian Restaurant: 

I went there 3 times, first 2 times to help to distribute the free food to public, the last time my friend brought me there and pay for random. The food is nice~~
 
Ri Man Restaurant:

The first time we went the food is less, cause the owner thought we girls can not eat a lot.
The second time
my friend's dad pay for us, very expensive and we ate the ChaoZhou Steamed Fish. Heko also tasted like what I tasted in my hometown~~

Ju Chun Yuan Restaurant:
This restaurant got large portion of food, but the taste not so nice..
The price is ok but the dishes just normal...
 
Ozarah Cafe: 

I like the Oreo Snowflake and Chocolate Banana Snowflake, my friends recommended the Mix Fruits Snowflake. The other food is not worth to try I think, so just for desserts...
 
Joe and Pepper Restaurant:

I went there because Shifu brought us there. I ordered Salmon Steak and Duck Drumstick, and Carbonara Pasta. The pasta very milky, and very fluidity. The Salmon Steak costs RM24, is served with the body part, so not so nice fragrance. The duck is nice but I can not accept the side dish. 
The apple pie is nice, the New York Cheese Cake is served with raspberry sauce. The ice cream is mint chocolate, very nice~
There are Fungus Pasta, Chicken Cordon Bleu, Sea bass Steak, Tomoto Soup and Pumpkin Soup.
The drinks are all not nice to order. 
 
Double Tree Restaurant:
 
The Salmon Steak costs RM22 and it is nice!!! Full of salmon fragrance!! There is another Cheesy Breaded Salmon costs RM27, which there is a layer of cheese, mushroom sauce in between the steak and covered with breadcrumbs. I think the other tastes covered the original salmon fragrance thus I do no like it much. The lamb chop costs RM18 and it is nice, yet I think it is not marinated enough. The chicken chop is not worth to eat, pasta too... 
The drinks are all too expensive...
  
Bubble Tea Cafe:

Saw the photo of the desserts and there are a lot of fruits there on the ice!! Will try this next time~