KM & Jo & Lyn

It's a very complicated story.
One day, I came late and I did not sit with them.
So I was looking at Ming, and luckily Lyn did not realize I was looking at him.
Cause I was too focus to him that I did not realize the girls were looking at me.
Then the story is, Lyn was signing the attendance, she wanted to help me to sign, and she looked to my direction.
Jo was sitting beside her, and said with a full of jealousy face:"He got come la, he got come la."
When Lyn told me this, I thought Jo was acting sampat, but the truth is, she seriously showed jealous face...
Lyn said a lot people get "Love Letter" from the academic office.
He did not get it.
She said, he owed her this.
Yea, since the time I did not sign for him, she took the responsibility.
She the one who called him for class, who messaged him for class, who signed for him when he absent.
One of the reason I did not show my concern to him, that he said he did not realize I fell for him, which is, I think it is crowded when they are three person in a relationship, no matter lovership, or friendship.
I do not like the feeling when I think of wanna help him to sign, and there is another person looks at you, questioning me why I should sign for him, while she definitely will sign for him if the situation happened to her.
I mean, ya, I get jealous of other girls who care of him.
And I angry that I am not the one who got a proper reason that I should sign for him.
She got.
She sit beside him, so everything she have to help him, inform him.
Who am I??
To do all that kinds of work??
While there are some others can help him do the things, why I should help him to do it??

I hate to have 3 in a relationship.
I hate it.
I think I am the one who is too stupid, who is too kind.
If I really want him, why I always let her interrupted and interfered between me and Ming??
I should do more selfish things.
I shouldn't wait for her, while he was waiting for me, then we will have our own area.
Who ask me, to be so not brave to show my true feeling to him???

And from his comments in facebook, he said he likes the 3 physiological activities are, sleep, eat, sex.
Very well, I have a feeling he purposely showed that he is an idiot.
If he really is this kind of idiot, then I feel so sorry to myself that I suffer so long for this kind of guy.

Even so, I still love him...