Day dreaming

I was running to chase YY because I did not bring my matrik card.
Lyn, Ming, Imran were there already. Same scene happened, Lyn was in her effort to get his newspaper.
He gave Imran instead although he did not ask for it, but pointed to the newspaper.
I knew it because Imran told us on the way back hostel.
Same episode, I avoided them by cleaning the whiteboard, going out of the room to wash my hands.
I had nothing to do.
I tried not to look at them.
He was talking to her, telling her something, that he will not go back this week because he needs to clerk case. He told her that he wants to go back next weekend.
He told her about his plan of presenting case.
Doctor came and we discussed our learning issues.
I was day-dreaming.
He hinted me to proceed.
Actually I was waiting others to settle the previous learning issue.
I felt he was like happy or what??
He felt amused because I was day-dreaming???
Actually I was avoiding to see him that time.
When he is explaining, he is charming.
With his confident, with his fluent talking, because everything is already inside his brain.
That is my only way to look at him directly.
But he was not looking to me during his explanation.
He avoided me too...
He showed his interest in Orthopedic and now I only know.
He looked at me sometimes to get agreement from me.
Maybe I am the one who always support YL in his explanation.
But I only day-dreaming during Ming's explanation.
Because I was distracted by his voice, his actions...
At last, he wanted to add on his explanation.
He mentioned about the EXTRA function of internal fixation of fracture.
It is to let the bone grow longer, to increase height.
Everyone were looking at me, Imran and Lyn...
Ming too, he with his teasing smile, does not know who he laughing of...
I was embarrassed and smile with embarrassment..
Plus some threatening tone of voice.
Finally I get smiles by his words...
That I thought I will never get amusement from him...
That I will forever being ignored by him.
That I will not be the subject in his conversation...
He was walking with us after the PBL.
That he did not do for so long already,
He finally put down the prejudice on me.
Ah Giam and I wondered, why I am the one who actually being dumped but he acted like he is the one??
Maybe he really feel weird with my presence...
I even avoided or pretended that I was day-dreaming when I realized that our sight might be met, to hide my direction of sight.
I will work harder to hide everything.
Jealousy, owning him, sadness.


P/S: Maybe he just think his body still not yet in his perfection, that's why he rejected the offer of modeling. And will accept when he satisfied with his body??