Falling down

I was stalking his online status.
Thursday he still online, but off until Monday.
We had a short holiday, although he needed to clerk case, but he went back too.
He told Lyn all this while where he went, what he did.
Even clinical teaching information, he did not send me.
He sent others.
I did not receive any news, but I knew there was a teaching, he said it, I remembered it.
Saw him wearing formal shirt that not usually wear, maybe it is day of presentation.
Lyn bakes cakes and treated us. Another box was for PBL.
When we were in cafe, he was at opposite table, facing me, that I can conveniently see him.
He ate very fast, and he did not look at anyone.
Even the dental gang did not sit with him.
He probably nervous for the presentation.
He leaved and he called Lyn.
Informed her by calling and not to be rude, he asked Lyn to tell me too.
We walked to the department, he was waiting for other members.
His backlighting background image is charming.
And he asked about others who could not find place, and who did not receive message.
"I dont get." I said.
And I put down my bag, walked to the toilet.
After I coming out of toilet, I lost...
I did not know where I have to go.
Then I saw Wirdah and Amu, they too did not know, hahahahaa!!!
Luckily Lyn came out for toilet and we went inside the department.
I was not comfortable to share same space with him anymore.
I kept going in and out, fetching Fifa, stayed away from them but looked at him through the image reflected on the glasses of the office.
Lyn distributed the cakes, and the chocolate cakes was really nice.
He refused to eat, although she pursued him, convinced him.
I think she must be very disappointed.
And Wirdah said he did not consume the cupcakes she made the other day too.
I thought he just want to appear good in front of the doctor because eating cakes that can easily stay on his teeth especially on his braces.
When inside the meeting room, I looked for a seat that not closed to the doctor, either sides, and as usual, another condition is not next to him.
I looked at him as much as I can, cause this is the chance.
He being shoot by the doctor, actually the doctor is nice and he did not care about the case.
He taught us the skills of history taking.
After all, Lyn again distributed all her cakes to all of us.
Again she asked him to eat, and I was watching.
I wondered will he eat, and actually my heart was hanging high because actually I do hope he will not eat it...
He rejected again and he asked whether she made it or bought it.
He said he does not trust the food that people made.
Oh ya, he rejected my food before too.
Obviously, he was happy yesterday.
He stayed until the very end of our gathering inside the department.
With smiling face.

Today, I was lazy to go to class.
I did not study for 3 months already.
And when I went in the tutor room, I saw Lyn and him talked in Mandarin.
They were happily interacting to each other.
I could not stand the environment.
There is a little world between them.
I went to clean the whiteboard.
I pretended to sleep.
I was not looking at them.
He was talking in Malay too.
They were competing their language abilities.
He sang a Malay song chorus, the "Cinta Tiga Segi"
He was imitating her slang, he was trying his best to tease her, with cooperation of Imran.
I smile, I laughed, but I was in my effort to not listening to him, not pay my focus on him.
He said he will treat YY and MY.
Because they were going to take our PBL triggers.
I was picked by YL to present the seminar, that I do not like to talk in public.
Sadly, I have to do it, because the one who said he wanted to present, changed his mind now.
And without seeing the situation, Lyn asked me why I am emo in public.
That I need to become a fake individual who said :"I am sleepy."
Then during the PBl, his turn of pretending to be sleepy.
I was the scriber, it was tiring to sit, walk, write and I think I hurt my body by playing badminton vigorously, without warm up and without proper shoes. 
When we picked our learning issues, I was tiring standing.
And YL said about the Titanic famous posture, and I pointed Lyn and him who standing together to do it.
They were so slow in choosing learning issues...
I asked him to write by himself of my impatient to wait for him, and he wanted me to service him by writing his name on board.
I know that is my responsibility but he was too slow and I was too tired...
Can him just let me go?
Lastly, I went out without Lyn to buy notes.
And he chose another path to Murni so that we would not meet.
Nice and fine!!!
I admit I got find for him and, I am hurt.
He, doesnot care at all, right?