He said that if there is no PBL after lecture, then he will not attend the lecture, because it is just 1 hour different for his sleep.
I went to BPSP and I actually noticed that he was walking not far from me on another path, I estimated that I can meet him in front of the door, and I really met him there.
If I really wanted to create co-incidences, I can make it so easily, and without anyone notice it.
Just, from my failure of confession, I do not know anymore, I have no confident anymore, that, is he the one worth me to do the kind of thing? *I believe this kind of manipulating games can win a guy's heart*
If a girl need to create so many things to make a guy likes her, it is such a manipulated game, and even she got the guy, the guy might just in some fancy imaginations or the feelings the guy felt for her are just so unreal, fake.
We met in front the door, we were waiting for each other to scan the card.
Actually I always forgot to take my matric card this week.
And I planned to meet him there because both my shins are in pain as I went to jog, vigorous exercises~ Lol~
Actually I can walk slowly to avoid meeting him.
I did it a lot after the confession, or even before the confession, one of the reason is to left the space for him and Lyn, another one is if I get too near to him, it drives me crazy. *This is just for old time*
So I walked steadily cause I know I will get to pass the door without card.
I knew it sounds like an excuse, but if I did not notice that he was near, I need to either run to the door when others open it, or wait until there is another person open it.
We stopped, he talked with me in Mandarin: "有卡的人开门咯。" with his smile, he knows I also did not bring the card.
I did not have it, that's why I expected him to open, and luckily Imran had the card with him.
I smelled his scent since I walked behind him. I purposely walked behind him, to remind myself, that in the scent in my memory.
Some of our PBL-mates were sitting outside to wait for the doctor, while Lyn walked into the tutor room without waiting long.
CKM sat down after me, and he said we should wait together for the doctor.
He sat the seat which I initially wanted to sit, but I also can predict he is going to sit there and I just chose another seat, and he was just about 10 degree a table away from me.
When the doctor came, we went in the room.
He was trying to open the door for me thrice.
Maybe that were just my imagination, maybe he is polite, the scanning door, the BPSP door and the tutor room door, while he did not make it obvious cause I am not that kind of girl who really mind who hold the door. Or girls who really hope for guys to hold door for them.
He chose a seat beside me but there was a path between us.
He answered the learning issue with no good performance *Amu told me that he was not in good condition in academic thingy this week*
I sketched his legs cause I realised I can not drew him with sitting poses.
And I drew it on my trigger, and he lent it to read the questions that he had to answer.
I not sure if he saw or understood what I sketched, cause I just made a draft, to get a reference for the angle.
And I took back the trigger from him, then I continued drawing when others were explaining about the learning issues.
And somehow I felt he was trying to get nearer to me by changing his postures while he was sitting on the chair.
And I felt he was looking at my sketches when I put my trigger on my table, and I felt uncomfortable with that, I flipped my trigger to the page with nothing.
The other sketches
Then he was so blur during the PBL.
When we finally ended our session, we went out to celebrate MY's birthday.
Me, Lyn and Amu were going to buy cake with CKM's car, and Lyn actually did not like it cause we had to walk to hostel to get the car. It was further than we directly walk out.
And CKM walked away, and I told her that MY was there and she will see us if we passed by.
So Amu called CKM and he actually waited for us to walk with us, he then told us he wanted to go to KKKK, while he asked Lyn to drive his car.
Lyn was so surprised that he put his trust on her and she can not believe it that she is going to drive his car.
I think they talked about a lot of thing before that.
Cause when I took his bunches of keys, there is a hidden knife keychain, and there is a unique key, I hold it.
And then I asked about it's function cause the shape is quite weird, so called unique.
I heard the answer from Lyn but what I remember the most is, she said that he told her that is the key to his heart.
Opps, sorry, and I stopped holding it.
I returned all the keys to Lyn, and Amu teased her that she has the key to his heart with her, and I modified that, she is holding the key to his heart~~
Wow, sounds so romantic!
And we kept teasing her along the way, and she felt unsatisfied with us.
We walked to his car, and I actually asked her to open the air-conditioner while I will stand somewhere shaded.
Then I felt not nice to do that, so I followed her and hided under the tree.
I actually planned to sit beside her, and then I opened the front door, then I saw CKM after Lyn saw him.
I closed back the door, and walked to the hind door.
I was considering.
If I sit in front while Lyn drove the car, after that she will pass the driver seat to him, then I will be sitting with him, but if I sit behind, how if he suddenly asks her to drive him out, and he will have to sit behind with me.
But since he came, I can chose very fast that I sit behind.
Lyn put her bag and water bottle behind, made me misunderstood that she wanted to sit behind.
But when I hinted her to get into the car, she walked to the front door and sat inside.
Hmmm...
I talked to myself, that "You are sitting in front..."
Me and Amu shifted left and right to avoid the sunlight.
CKM scolded us saying that be careful of his car.
We ignored him.
We had fun in the car, he drove us to buy cake, and I followed Lyn to choose the cake.
And he is so into a game called "Monster something" until he wasted our time waiting him to complete a game before he started to drive.
His driving skills made me feel dizziness.
He drove in the parking lots in Mydin, he turned so many times and I felt more dizzy.
I quickly went down of the car once he stopped the car.
I ran to the restaurant and MY was not there yet.
Lyn chose the seat and I was forced to sit at the corner.
Although I can change the seat but, for what I make so many efforts to go near him?
When he finally walked in the restaurant, he think to sit near me, but there is no other seat?
I think I am over imagining.
When MY walked into the restaurant, she felt upset cause we had a PBL gathering and we did not call her to join.
Actually finally she knew we were celebrating her Bday.
When he was singing HB song, he was not looking at MY, like not very sincere.
It is very different with the time he purposely sang the birthday song to me, alone, I was the one who felt really shy and not dare to look at him at all.
Then I heard that YY was telling him to be more sincere in singing HB song??
They were too far and I only can catch the meaning.
We had no contact at all the whole lunch, but I can always hear his voice there.
He is being talkative recently.
When we was about to leave, I followed behind him, he stopped and looked at me, like how he looked at me last time, with a challenge face, he said: "Shai lou Cai", I said: "Ngor ya yi sui la. Li dou hai ya yi sui arr."
Then I walked away. But everyone was on their phone and I just waiting them to settle down, quite boring la like that.
Then we had 7 people squeezed in a car.
Luckily I am not the one who sit with guy, I hate it.
I was so near to him that I was just behind his seat.
When we reached the traffic light, he was replying a guy called "Sing Sing"?
I knew it is not polite and no manner to see others' conversation.
I admit it, curiosity kills a cat.
I looked what he typed to the guy, who I think is a guy.
I thought he was testing some girls.
But what I saw was: Paktor no stress if pak with the right one.
He was convincing his friend about relationship.
And that is a right say about love, the one who gives dating advices, he will stay single.
LOL~~~
We saw YY and MY walking, and I crazily waved to them, for a long time they did not notice us.
While me, Amu and Lyn aggressively waved our hands, and CKM joined us when the traffic light turned green, he passed by in front of them and made them realised our presence.
I saw his smile of fun after he did that.
He drove from the hospital back to drop Nuranian, it is a longer way.
Lyn told him about it and he just ignored her, saying that it is just the same.
When he turned into the parking lots, there was a little bit squeezing effect, and I made fun of it, and Lyn said we should squeezed Iki.
So when there was another turn in front of the hall, he made full turning and we all squeezed Iki, and again I saw his smile of fun, and naughty.
And soon after the turn, he stopped the car, Lyn went down the car with the guys and went to the front seat.
And she pushed CKM's muscular left arm and said want to squeeze him.
Amu pulled my arm hinted me something, and I pulled her arm back~~
Lol~~~
Then we went to fetch another girl.
And he said he can start his karaoke.
When Lyn asked him where his newspaper, and he replied he threw it already.
He used his matric card to open the automated gate, and Lyn wanted to look at his photo, he thought she wanted to help him hold the card so he just put back where he usually put.
And Lyn took his card and he tried to get it back, but failed cause he was driving although he can put his arms so far away.
So I got the advantage cause Lyn was holding it far away from him but close to me.
I can easily get it, and I was looking at it.
He had no choice but to let me look at it.
While I gave out my snicker, he had no choice but bear with it.
While I heard Lyn said she not yet look at it cause she is the one who gets it first, so I just passed back it to her.
Then here comes his arms again to grab back his property.
Lun returned him after she satisfied teasing and looking at the photo.
They were saying it is too hot so can not see the face already.
There are 2 meanings, he meant he is too hot, while Lyn meant the temperature too hot made the photo faded.
He sang a few songs, one of it is Teenager Dream.
I said, it made me think of the character in Glee, Blaine, and he is a gay.
Silence...
Then I sang together with song, softly, no one heard it.
Then when he sang some songs that I do not familiar with, I tried to jot down the lyrics so that I can search it when I come back, and Amu thought that I was having something fun, and tried to get my phone.
I screamed and said nothing in my phone, then I begged Amu, by calling her name softly, and finally I won, but with my own strength.
*Later I told Amu that I was simply do not want to give her because she wanted it so much*
Then I sang the song "Nothing, nothing, nothing"
I slept on Amu's arm.
But when he sang "Just the way you are", I think of HW.
Oh, her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shinin'
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday
Yeahh
I know, I know
When I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me "Do I look okay? "
I say
[Chorus:]
When I see your face (face face...)
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing (amazing)
Just the way you are (are)
And when you smile (smile smile...)
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing (amazing)
Just the way you are (are)
Yeah
[Verse 2:]
Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday
Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
You know I'll say
[Chorus:]
When I see your face (face face...)
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing (amazing)
Just the way you are (are)
And when you smile (smile smile...)
The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing (amazing)
Just the way you are (are)
The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing (amazing)
Just the way you are (are)
[Chorus:]
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing (amazing)
Just the way you are (are)
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
Yeah
I was smiling while he was singing that.
I wonder who is the girl he think is perfect without any change.
And I am kind of impressed by his true heart when he really love a girl.
I think the girl who he will sing this song to in the future is a very lucky girl.
Kind of blessing him that he will live happily with his girl.
I feel good for his future girl.
Then we reached the warong.
Lyn turned and asked me about the incidence just now and asked :"Him?"
I said, "There is no him."
I just denied it.
Then Lyn asked Amu to show CKM her signature expression, and she asked me to do it, and I rejected, and he said: "Whatever." and turned back to his game.
He suddenly sang while he was sleeping, and we all shocked, I asked Amu not to move her arm so that I can sleep comfortably.
He said his legs is sexy legs cause Amu said that it is pity that his legs are stuck in the driver seat.
Actually Amy asked the same question like I asked him during waiting the traffic light in front KFC last CFCS.
But he will never answer me nicely, he just said: "I feel no problem, any problem there?"
When Alfred asked him to go down of the car, I straight away went down and later I found that everyone was not taking their bags.
I asked CKM to open the door for me to put the bag but he ignored me.
*I heard from Lyn that he said he is lazy.*
And then during distributing the area and the grouping, he asked YY to be in his group and pointed me to be with another car.
Fine.
After the discussion, they were saying it is ok to stay like previous grouping, but I volunteered that I am better to follow the old group cause I know the area well.
Since he taught us to take control of own life.
And I decided to not be with him in any occasion.
We went up the car, Farhana mind to sit with guy, I also mind it, I am religious too.
But everything has a solution, I put my bag between me and Imran as a barrier.
Sometimes I did not put, because he think I mind too much and there is nothing.
Nope, I hate being touched by any guy in any way.
Please leave me alone!!!
Then we separated to our original group.
Me, Imran and Azri covered our old area.
We got a lot of Rambutan.
And when me and Imran visited one house, we got some very sweet Rambutan.
We walked together, he said it is weird to hold it.
So I suggested to eat it all!!!
I opened all the Rambutan by squeezing it, for both of us~~~
My hands actually felt pain but I do not mind it la.
*I believe that girls who no need to do this kind of things are the girls who the guys wanted the most, and no wonder I am not wanted , lol~~ But Cindy said guys like girls to serve them in case of about food~ Hmmm, really??*
So when we finished our flier, and called up so many people, finally Imran called CKM and got the other fliers.
We thought we can get free ride, but the car full with people.
Then we walked there, me and Imran shared one umbrella and actually it did not covered me at all =.=
On the way back to school, Wendy called me and actually it was Lyn who asked me to jogging.
Then Wendy called Lyn's phone as Imran forgot he told it.
Then someone called her too, and he is actually her brother and he scolded me twice for taking her phone.
And when I returned the phone to her, she actually thought I am the one who pranked her no matter how I denied it.
And I realised everything I did to her actually she will think me in a bad way, not for her good.
Like in this case, she never think me that I am willing to help her instead of prank her.
I am hurt, but luckily I learnt from my prince, so I did not cry.
When I talked to her, when I told Amu, when I told Cindy.
I thought I will cry when I am telling Cindy, but I am not.
Then I just realised I become stronger than I was.
My voice choked and there was no tear in my eyes, and finally I knew what Prince mean by sobbed.
This is the first time when I told someone something I care and hurt but not crying it out.
I am stronger, and I promise myself I will never cry even he hurts me.
During our jogging session, she told me a lot about CKM, about how he acts.
He just stayed on the car when all others going to distribute the fliers.
He scolded her when she leaved the fliers on the car.
He repeated "The Scientist" about 30 minutes and above, Amu finally can not stand anymore and asked him to change the song, by saying: "KM, I like this song, but do not make me hate it"
He said he wanted to put this song on his wedding. Lyn was telling like she will attend his wedding and CKM replied: "Who want to invite you?"
*People actually play this song during funeral and he wanted to put it on his wedding, I discussed with Cindy*
She said he treats her differently in chat, in person and in public.
He treated her bad when in public, maybe said something mean to her.
Me and Imran walked to red square at 830pm, people looked at us differently.
Then we did some work, and I saw CKM took something here and there attracted people eyeballs.
I will never have the initiative to know more about him, cause he will give me bad response.
And he distributed his cheese tarts to all the members who stayed there late.
SHM said it maybe not halal cause someone made it to him.
And he actually shared his love with others.
Surprise!!
If it is me, I will kept it.
But looked like the tarts were too a lot and really can not finish if eat it alone.
I went to meet Amu and I lost the chance to taste his future girl friend or wife's products.
But I think there was something that drives me not to stay and finally I leaved.
It is good that I did not taste it, maybe I will collapse on the spot when knowing the girl made that for him.
And it is a rare case that CKM received and tasted food from unknown source, mean the unknown source is really important and meant for him.
During the meeting he helped us to fold some pamphlets.
Although I peeked on him but he was busying chatting on his phone.
I hope for his happiness.
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