Unhappy

Today I studied the FLM materials, and I feel like I have to going back to student's life style...
I went to clinical teaching, it also made me have to study, even during PBL, told me I need to study.

Then I just realised he is going to UPM, not UKM, for football match.

Then I found that he is not in the list of signed up the USM Maxis plan.
I did not see his name.
And he told me that day in the car, that he will go to sign up the plan, and he actually just said it and did not do it.
And I put hope on it.
I felt down for the whole afternoon.

Even he signed up the plan, it is not under his name, can mean that he did subline with another girl, mean he is in a relationship with a girl in this campus.

Either way, did not signed up or applied supplementary line, makes me feel sad.

Then when I went back room, I saw some said that her name not appeared on the list but she got the SIM card. While some did not get her name and SIM card even she did apply for it...

I did not see his name...

Then tonight I went to Buddhist activity in school.
I saw Ah Yik, actually I searched for him since I entered the hall.
I felt it was same like last year, I observed CKM.
He was searching for someone, when I walked into the hall, he saw me, and he tried to find someone behind me, I guessed that person he searched for was Lyn.

This time, I went earlier.
*Compared to last year, we went late, and we only can sit somewhere behind and in front CKM.
Cindy was in front of him and Ken, and I assumed the guy who liked Cindy before was CKM???*

So, I chatted with LC, and then KY and WP entered the hall, I went to chat with them, and then went back to my seat and went to 438 group telling them I am holding 8 precepts.

When I went back to my seat, WP actually played with me that she missed call me.
I found her while she was watching me finding her.

And then I saw Ah Yik was near the registration table.
And I think my face went red, I do not know why.
He can not recognise me what!

I continued chatted with them, and when I wanted to return to my seat, Cindy took my seat so I returned to KY and WP.

I chantted outside the homage to triple gem instead of chinese triple gem song.
I just do not feel comfortable with it.

Then I sang the song they played with feeling with thinking of Prince.

And then I realised that Ah Yik was behind and he might see my crazy stage.
Then I kept observed him.
Maybe I interested to little brother or what.
I like his shoulders and his back.
I am holding 8 precepts and actually should not think and write about this kind of things.

And I do think he knows I was observing him.
And he also in excited stage that he shouted his friend's name when his friend was on the stage.

He is quite cute.
I might consider if he really a nice guy.
But must fulfill my requirement about boyfriend and husband la~

At least he is tall, he is good in academic, he is shy, he is straight hair.

But all these points, can not beat CKM's one smile, one reply, one song, one eye sight, or one action.

So Ah Yik also saw me chatting with MH, who tended to touch me a lot.
I am holding 8 precepts, and plus I memang do not like guy to come close me.
Maybe Ah Yik will think as I am a generous girl, but, I AM NOT!!!

Lastly, I might be late for chanting, so I went back early, and I messaged him that I saw him.
And he just realised that is my contact number.
He told me that he recognised me since the very beginning of the event.

Surprised!!
He can recognise me???

LOL~~