Mean

Ming=Mean???

I woke up late, I think my PMS came earlier...
A feeling of tired for the whole morning...
I smelled Lyn's perfume at corridor with leaked from her room...
I slept in the class, played with friends.
He was sitting 2 or 3 row above us, above dental gang again.
Lyn went to toilet and I waited for her, while he was slowly walking down, no wonder everytime after lecture, he was always late to the tutor room.
I am now not afraid to look at him and discuss about academic thingy.
I had a minor fight with him regarding to some learning issue, that I do not agree with his point or something.
I think he not satisfies with me.
So later when I explained, I saw they laughed and I did not know why.
I continued with my reading.
And he asked me about the meaning of word, that he looks down me.
I heard this story from Lyn during our dinner.
After PBL, we went to cafe together, I talked to Imran.
I like the feeling that I am walking with someone, and I talk with him, and I have to look so high up, and feel romantic of it.
I know he was watching, that I can feel some jealousy at that point, but I was still doing it.
Cause maybe it is just my fantasy.
I wanted to show that I can live very well without him.
I do not just put my attention to him.
He is not my priority anymore.
I can mingle with anyone else.
He sat far from me, and hided from my sight.
I was telling Amu about my recent life story, that I wanna go home and something.
At that point, I felt Ming was listening.
My fantasy again.
Amu invited me to go her home, with real Indian curry, with free accommodation, free guide and Icecity visiting.
6 days of vacation, I should take the offer, but my ethic report not yet done T.T
And actually I played too much recently, I start to feel guilt...
I saw Ming used a water bottle, first time I see that, and he return to the normal him.
He winked to Amu. He did his sexy eyes expression.
And he did not go away straight after he finished eating.
I was not talking to him...
Later he leaved. Amu accompanied her friend.

We trio went to library.
We played the test with Imran in the library, Lyn and him share some characteristic.
When we went to the wad, I saw him and I did not want to see him.
I did not go near to him, but Lyn did~~~
Actually, I always try to get his attention...
But pretended do not want his attention...
Cause I feel inferior with my appearance.
When we tried to examine the kid, he showed his cute face to the kid.
Tried not to scare the kid.
His face quite stupid, hahahaha, but warm.
Then we went to check another girl.
She is 15 year old and can see she is having stunted growth and short stature.
After the doctor gone, we started to chat during examination.
Sometimes I stood near by him, and it is normal.
He started to feel comfortable with my presence.
While I immune to him after the exposure last 2 weeks.
We stopped chatting in FB, stopped talking to each other, for 1 and half month, he finally put down his defense.
Imran saw my white hair, while immediately Ming told about I have hair loss and he pointed it out, why did he so mean to me???
I ignored him once again.
And when we went out of the wad.
We wanted to take lift.
I rushed into the lift and when I turned, I realized he was after me.
That he acted so fast to get the lift.
We waited for Lyn.
When Lyn came in, she looked at people outside and started to press close button, vigorously.
We all asked her to wait, and she insisted to close it, hahahahaa!!!
Guess what??
YL and MY were there and she was playing them.
I saw Ming's smile.
I think he feels the pairing thingy is funny.

I did my ethic report until Cindy asked me for dinner.
We chatted there and finally I asked it out about incident this morning.
She told me after I asked her about the pronunciation,  Ming asked her that am I knowing the meaning of "thawed".
That's why they laughed, and I wondered if I did anything wrong at that point cause I explained my part straight after Lyn finished her explanation.
I actually have a thought that they were laughing at me but I decided to not to care.
Maybe that's my fantasy again and they may just having fun together.
Then Lyn asked him to ask me himself.
That's why he asked me after my explanation.
And even after I told my answer*with an unsure face*, he told Lyn that, there are a lot ways of thawing, not only what I answered.
What's his problem now???

He is so mean to me???

And I continued my report after dinner, until late night.
I hate assignment, seriously.

I succeed control my heart not to fall.