Sad

Yesterday I had a dream, me and Ming Wei went to an island which I feel maybe Krabi or Koh Samui or Maldives.
I nearly being kidnapped and I was struggling to swim away from them...
So tired and so scary T.T

And then at night, I went to SNie room.
And we both and Lfen cried together when we explained the misunderstanding of our friendship.

Then I fell down on the way I went back room, my knee knocked the angle of the stair T.T

Morning, I immersed the peanut and glutinous rice.
Then I went to class.
Saw that Jo sat beside Ming and Joe, while Lyn walked to them, but she went down when she noticed the seat was too far from the screen.

Actually Jo booked seats for us, but I rather to sit with the air conditioner blew straight to my face but I do not want to sit around him.

Finally Lyn walked back to the seat up there.

Then we proceeded to tutor room...
During PBL, I saw Lyn and Ming looked to each other and smile.
My heart pain.
When the PBL ended, I had to stay to discuss about ethics.
She was standing near the door and I can feel she was impatient.
What I think is, Ming went away already.
She wanted to go with them but I was still not done.

And so I asked her to go first.

When I reached the cafe, I do not want to wait.
I went in the cafe, I chose cafe catering.
But, I did not put my bag on the seat.
It is fate if anyone sit on it or take it away.
When I done taking my food, the chair gone.
Good, I will sit with others then.

My plan succeed.

Lyn, Ming and Imran sat there with harmony, without me.
Ming did not went away straight after he finished his meal.
He stayed there chatting.

Finally I should tell myself that he always stay after meal for her, not me.

I cooked the dessert, it is nice.

SN blamed me to follow to the trip.
I feel hard and difficult, but I will not chance my mind.
And I should be patient with her attitude.

What should I do for her??
She wants to call him.
She is immature.
She is my friend...

His name not in my top list anymore...
Sometimes appear, sometimes not...