Selfish

I feel I am selfish, when I attracted to outside things, I abandoned myself and chased after the not important things.

And usually the not important thing will fail your expectation, and you get hurt, you get lost and you get down.

After this failure, then only I back to myself, treat myself good, under protection.
Why can just stay with myself and do not seduce by those not important things in life???

You can do it.
Really, from now on.