Closer

Although Lyn told me she hates Ming who is rude, but actually she is trying to convince herself to hate him.
And still I am not talking to him yet.
So Lyn suggested that I have no need to talk to him.

She cares of him although she said the different things.

I am happy with my group, playing around, eating around, hahaha!!!
We just walked for an hour, then we rest until Fion came, we chatted and then we went to have brunch.
We ate fried squid and other fried things in a Chinese stall.
Then we went back continued our chatting.
Finally at 2pm, we had our lunch, I ate 2 chicken wings and 2 small fried so called "kampung fish" with some vege.
After I finished our area, we went to help Iki, ans there we got to enjoy ABC in that hot weather about 3 something!!! Thanks to Azri who sembang kuat with the owner of the stall...
She put green sauce, red sauce, orange sauce, sugar syrup, condensed milk and pulut, sagu and cendol~~~ Wow!!!!
After eating that, we felt so calm cool and cold~~~
Feel GOOD!!!

Later we continued our work with Fion drove us to a new area.
We waited long time for the bus, cause we were not waiting at the usual gather place.

When I got into the bus, I sat with Lyn.
And we chatted. About Perhentian trip.
Later we saw Ming's hands putting up to his head on the seat cushion.
She touched his fingers like, they are very close...
Like they are couple...
Like they already crossed the wall, reached the world of romance that can play with each other's fingers...

Yes, I jealous.
And I turned away once I saw that.

At the moment, suddenly she stood up asked me to shift to other seat.
The sun shined into our side, she wanted to avoid it.

Or she was shocked with her own behavior??
That suddenly touched a guy's fingers??
What I think is, she had developed "the need to have physical contact with the one she like".
Is a romance in her heart that she touched his fingers.

I am sad.
I am very very very sad.
Cause previously, I had a lot of chances to do that, but I did not allow myself to do this.
It is worthless if the guy has no same feeling with me.
It is precious if both of the guy and the girl have the same feeling to each other.
The moments that I touched him, I felt suddenly I am alert, the feeling of his fingers and his actions all that.
But that all were my imaginations.
Pointless.

So today I ate 1 Gardenia bun for breakfast, then together ate Gardenia choco cake with Lyn, 2 packs of peanuts, 1 piece of cake, the brunch, the lunch, then ABC, and now no dinner...
T.T

Tomorrow will go another stall for breakfast~~~
^.^