OMG!!!

We had clinical teaching early in the morning, I woke up 745am and I spent so much time to brush teeth, wash face, put cream, style hair, prepare breakfast, fill water bottle.

And me and Lyn still late to the class, hahaha!!!
I need more than 45 minutes to prepare myself to class!!

Then the whole clinical teaching, I did not look at him again~~ ^.^
Yea!!!
I can control myself now~~~
One thing that bothered is I can not answer what the doctor asked.. T.T

So Ming was going to lecture hall with YY and MY.
Again, I have that kind of misunderstanding that he was looking for my answer of whether I will follow Lyn for breakfast or not.
But actually he just looked unintentionally.
Hohoho, his fans followed him happily I think??

Cause I kepo signed for him yesterday, so I also signed for him today.
Then PBL time I also did not look at him, great success again!!!
But am I right that he cut his hair already??
By the way, he did not wait for us for lunch.
So, MY came and asked me, why KM did not have lunch with us? He leaved so fast?
When we were on the way the cafe, and I just distracted her by analyzing the length of the legs and angle relationship.
Since we were not having lunch with KM, so except me and Lyn, they both (MY & YY) found their own seats and sat separately with us.
Only YL who is blurred after that joined us for lunch.
While Ming was sitting alone facing the wall.

So after lunch, we went to BPSP and read the simplify story of Buddha life, and I slept nicely for half an hour before another clinical teaching started. The aircond is so cold and the sofa is so soft, I was so comfortable, hahahaha!!!

Then we went upstairs and I saw him sitting on the comfortable single sofa.
I ignored his presence and straight away went to LC, and I miss her so much, hahaha!!!
And suddenly when I took a peek on him, I felt that he was hiding his sight which was to my direction, misinterpretation again??
And I really hope him to laugh..
Since we become this kind of relationship, he does not mingle with others and laughed.
He was alone and did not talk much...
How can I put my main purpose aside, and made him unhappy with me.
My main purpose is, to let him not lonely when he is alone, try to approach him, talk to him, make him happy, then I will happy too.
And I should not have other thought more than letting him happy.

So we went to the room, where we had our history taking session.
OMG OMG OMG!!!
MY was obsessed to stand beside him!!!
Everytime she laughed, amused, shared something, she will look to him, even sometimes he did not look at her.
Hohohoho~~
OMG OMG!!
YY too, but cause I do not want to face to his direction, so I was not observing much about YY.
While Lyn, hmmm....
She looked to his direction too, but maybe she found that Ming was not looking to her, so she changed to share her laughter with Imran.

Maybe MY symptoms too obvious and I want to confirm her case first, as last week we thought that she has something with YL, but now, my diagnosis is MY likes KM, but since YL wants to chase her, then she will give chance to him and enjoy the moments. Yet she realized that YL actually no intention to chase her, so she puts her attention back to KM.
Actually what I want to tell is, human share their feeling with the one they think that know them and understand them.

Well, I am not the only observer in this world, at least I know Alfred does the same thing as me, hahahaha, I am not afraid to tell, I am a stalker like that!!!

I looked to Amu a lot, she too looked to me, so sweet~~~

And actually I limit myself not to look at him, I can see Amu, I can see MY, I can see his body below the neck. Ya, it is better when I already know that he will look to other directions, other girls, although I can not control myself to look to his direction, but I will not let my sight to reach to his eyes. What's the point if I look to a person who definitely will not share his laughter with me, who will never understand my feeling. And Amu's smiles and MY shy shy face enlightened me a lot.

Oh ya, I nearly forget that.
I had a dream this morning, I was with him.
My friends and family planned to prank me, I think that is my birthday or some special occasion, but actually the main victim is him.
And when I went to a room to change cloth, he was sitting on a box, some kind of storeroom, while I was walking into the room, people outside was telling a joke, he was hiding inside and listening to the joke, and he laughed.
He was hiding his laughter from crowd, that I do not know why, and I saw that.
I walked to him, he was still laughing.
And I was so enjoyed watching his laugh...
And I was so scared that he will stop laughing when he sees me, and so I put my fingers into his mouth and pulled apart, to have his smile and laugh hold longer...
*I feel sadness everytime I flashed back*

During the morning clinical teaching, I saw his laughter。
It is exactly same laughter in my dream...
Sadness and happiness fill my heart at the same time.
Should I happy to see his laughter, or should I sad that I hope so much to see his laughter??
*mean I rarely can see his laughter, pathetically*

Then in physical examination session...
Errrmmmm, I was totally lost.
I mean...
He was standing behind us with a bedside table in between.
Before that he was standing far away from me, but this also mean that he was far for the bed.
The doctor was at the right bedside, I was at the end of left bedside, so he went to the another side with MY in between.
When he tried to step forward closer to the patient, MY blocked him cause she also stepped closer to the bed.
Finally he went behind of us and Amu invaded between me and MY, hahaha!!
I always make a hole to let him see, but I not sure that was I blocking him.
He was talking softly behind me...
That made me loss my rational >.<
I needed to take a few deep breathes to calm myself down...
OMG OMG, I can not imagine if he is whispering to my ear >.<
Stop!!!!
Luckily that time the doctor was teaching the inspiration and expiration steps to palpate liver and spleen >.<
I was so nervous and my mind mess around!!!
I need to train myself more so that this kind of situation will not occur again.
And the most effective way is, avoid him!!!
No stand beside him, around him, must stay 3 meters away!!!!!

Lastly, when signed attendance, he went away, and far from me, and he did not sign yet.
I showed him the attendance sheet, and he signaled me to sign for him.
Ok, 1st, he just cared of his attendance, 2nd, at least he did not ignored me already. 
I think with this progression, we will be back to friends soon.

Again, I want to stress, I did not allow my heart to feel, so, I am still under control~~
And I should continue my efforts, he started to believe that I do not like him anymore.