Sandwich

Yesterday we had PBL, he did a eye contacts with me like last time, I knew thing is going to get better.
He was waiting and walking with us even not talking with us, I can know by his speed of walking.
*He is so nice to friends that I have a feeling of reluctant to give up loving him... But if we want to be friends again, I must give up.*
After I got my food, saw him sitting alone, asked him wanna join us for lunch or not, he was saying that he cant find us I think.
Then he said never mind.
We had our lunch separately.
So I sms him later.
I told him that all of those things just my imagination, and do not mind of unreal stuff. And it is tiring and weird to avoid each other.
When we got into CSC, when Lyn went out for Log Book, G came in and took over Lyn's seat.
I told him that was Lyn's place and he just ignored it.
And actually before that me and Lyn sat quite close, so G also sat close with me.
I felt umcomfortable with that.

I switched to the opposite of the table, where Ming was behind of me.
I felt umcomfortable with G, but I felt myself might be thought by Ming as "Another reason want to get closer to him". I hope that he will not think like that.
Too awkward that I scared every action of mine will be thought by him as a way to go around him.
T.T

By the way, I minded that if I get too near to him, he will feel unhappy and annoyed...

I reserved a seat for Lyn and I sat with ML.
And I tried my best efforts to show him that I get over with the history and I am happy now...
I laughed I played around, I smiled.

I forgot to say "Hi" and "Good Morning~", which is my routine when I am happy with everyday waking up and will see his face.
Oh ya, recently I was down.
And yesterday we woke up early for CFCS meeting.
I thought I will not see him for the whole week and even the time we in village.
And I had no thought when we went in the lecture hall.
Do not know why, I looked to Imran, and I saw someone talking to him.
The guy looked like very curious, I think he was asking about the reason of our together-appearances in lecture hall.
And I thought I too miss him until I have hallucination of him.
I looked again and again, finally I confirmed that "ya, it's him..."
What I thought that he was in Sarawak was wrong.
And I was charged, I no longer down...
Suddenly I hyperactively can joke with Lyn, can laugh with Lyn...
>.<
Ming, the source of my happiness??
Really???

So, he was walking around during the teaching and practice, the first time he did not rush out of the room.
He is really nice and calm and steady in doing any procedure, he always will give confidence to patients.

So I went back room and saw his message that he actually do not care of this.

Later I went buy ingredients for my herbal eggs.
Tiring...

Went ate the Grill Meat and felt not worth already.
By the way, I ate so many oils and even the crunchy pork adipose...
Straight away my voice gone, and I had headache on the way back from Up2u...

Bath and then cooked the eggs and the soup...
Some reserved as scrambled eggs, and a few for hard boiled eggs, and others for herbal eggs~.
Slept about 4am after did all that.

This morning woke up 830am.
And started to prepare everything, luckily Jo came and helped me.
Later Cindy also came and helped.
Huuu, if I did it all alone, I think 12pm just can finish all that.. T.T

My herbal eggs taste just nice now.
Just now talked with Joe.
He thought that the fishing guy was Ming.
I did not answered him nor denied.
Cause I wanted to know more about him..

Then I noticed that Ming has fishing behavior too..
Cause Joe told me when I said the guy who chat with many girls, the first came in his mind was Ming.
And he told me about Ming changed a lot.
From a guy who will not take off the shirt to a guy show off his abds.
Because of testosterone...
And now, ya, I just feel, maybe I'm too naive.
I knew that he chat with others, but just guessing.
Now confirm and it is not nice to know...

I think, maybe he just want to test his testosterone level.
To know that how many girls will fall for him.

Die heart.