Reason??

Yesterday Cindy asked me whether I had a thought that I do not need to marry anymore.
She said GX told her she did.
I think GX's talk shocked her a lot.
Cindy thought that Shifu taught us to not marry.
Actually, he was just explaining the suffer of marriage.
I told Cindy before, I will want to deliver my own child even if I do not get a husband, simply from a stranger.
I do not want to get from my own guy friends, and I do not want to know anything about the stranger, and not allow him to know about me.
Because like that the relationship would change.
Friendship become marriage, stranger become husband??
I do not want that.
So, actually before Shifu taught us anything, I already prepared not to marry.
But I changed my mind now, I do not need to purposely have a kid.
Everything is nice, everything is planned.
I will meet someone that suit me if I am destined to have one.
If I do not have anyone beside me, like what Shifu said, I am too wise and I do not need that fragile relationship with a stranger.

But why when he stood near me, I was so confused and my breathing became so irregular??
I cant think, I was uncomfortable with his present.
And I became hyperactive again with his present...
Yesterday with his present, I embarrassed when I failed to present my learning issue...

He combed his hair yesterday.
He was so easily accepting others suggestion about outing.
Maybe he just does not like whatever I am saying.

I will try my best to resist his influence to me.

P/S: He really did not change his cloth...