But I think I will not tell anybody about my believe anymore, this is the last.
I woke up at 8am this morning, will the gathering time should be 8am and I thought it was 9am.
8.30am, while I was shocked with the incidence that happened, and the published, YY called me and told me that the bus was there already.
I actually think of go with anyone's car, but most possibility will be CKM's car.
So, I asked her to ask the driver to wait.
But 2 minutes later she called me back and told me that the driver was leaving.
She asked me to call CKM, and she asked that did I have his number, I lied, I said no.
She called for me and told me that he will be depart at 9am.
Actually I just need 5 minutes to prepare myself.
So I waited him for 25minutes, that 10 minutes is the time he really late for.
As a guy, he failed.
I waited him at the roadside.
I was actually thinking that will Lyn on his car, and I was nervous.
When he came, he searched for me cause I saw he signaled his car, and I stood up to show myself.
He was shocked: "Why you wait at the kind of place one?"
I said: "The bus stops here one. Why no one tell me 8 o'clock?"
"They also din tell me. You just wake up arr???"
"I wake up at 8."
I think because of my eyes were edema because I cried yesterday, and I did not sleep much.
Then we had all silence in the car.
I was in the bad mood, sadness.
He sang song, and we were not talking at all for almost 20 minutes.
Maybe he knew I am in sadness, he did not aggravate me.
I might influenced by him.
I was trying to understand the meaning of the song,
"Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part"
"And tell me you love me, Come back and hold me
Oh and I rush to the start"
"I had to find you, Tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart"
Then Alfred called me, to ask us to buy breakfast, and I talked to him while I was on the phone.
"Still need how many minutes?" "10 minutes" "Chang Hong wants buy breakfast," "What he wants to eat?" "nasi lemak" "no need edi." Because it was just him who wants breakfast.
Actually I think this kind of attitude should change, cause he always consider himself first, and I saw him also asked Fiona go to buy lunch for him in the afternoon...
Errrmmm... Maybe he got gastritis?
And I continued staring out the windows, also tried to sleep on the seat belt, but it is not as comfortable cause he is a not so close friend. I can not put myself in weird situation.
Later I received one more call, felt annoying and when I knew that was KS, I became very cute, energized. He asked me for help.
I said sweet words to KS. Cause I told him to wait until night time, and then he said he will wait me, so I said "So sweet leh!!!"
And he actually replied me I very geli la, hahahahaaa~~~
(I got the intention to make CKM feel uncomfortable with it)
After the call, I put a forced expiration, adjusted my mood, and started to talk to CKM.
I talked a bit with him with some lame direction thingy.
I teased him that was him dumped by a girl, cause singing that song with feelings.
And he was pretending cool: "What's wrong with that song?"
I was thinking of as if he sang songs to Lyn too yesterday.
I was thinking the meaning of the song, and I tried to deny that he was singing that song to me to tell me that he wants to back to the start, he regrets, he was wrong.
I must learn from last experience, that do not be so easily falling for a guy.
*Hohoho, now I know why he repeating sang that song, maybe he watches Glee, and that is the new song they sang. He found it nice*
He fetched our group to the opposite area, we did not do much work.
After done we walked back to the kopitiam and rest.
I talked to Amu, and I closed my eyes for silence, in that while I was too sad that I cried again.
And I texted him that I want to follow him to back to campus later.
When he was back, ML and CKM were chatting, he asked her to join the prom night.
While ML asked me to go, because CKM suggested her to ask me to go to the prom night. (He pointed to me and said, "Asked her go la.")
ML gave out her hand, invited me to go, like inviting lady for a dance, I hold her hand, showed a "Going" face, but said:"Let me consider."
I can felt that he was watching this, and he thought that I was going to say "Yes".
After the other groups coming back to kopitiam, Amu's group was going to collect the questionnaires, I followed them. I wanted somewhere quiet and calm. At least the temperature in other houses cooler.
He called Thban who was busying playing cards.
He told Thban "Siew Mun wants you," Cause Thban was how and how and how(just praised him so that he will follow). And he explained he is just a driver. He put us in front a house, while when he said he wanted to leave us there, we asked him to wait for us. It was a coincidence that the respondent was not free.
And my memories now are all mixed....
We went out for how many times?
1st time with Thban, 2nd time with Lyn and 3rd time with YY, Thban and ML.
He was too excited until he missed some houses, and he drove in to a narrow path, he said: "I try to put as in as I can." While the others felt surprised. But the path is too narrow that he just not help much.
Me, Balqis, Amu and Thban went in the path and along the way, Thban wanna push me into the sawah with water T.T
On the way back, he did it twice with hold tight my backpack, I was being bullied T.T
But fun!!!
They told me that he was just fetching people to one's house and he will just stay on the car.
Maybe he do not like to do such things, especially ask about girl's stuffs.
He was going to fetch others, then waiting us in the car, and sent us to another house, I went in, and I felt bored.
I went to see flowers, dragonfly, and lastly I went back to the car for air cond.
I smiled to him and Thban because I was embarrassed that I leaved the girls inside the house.
He asked: "Why are you here?"
"For the air cond la!"
Then he was starting to sing, "I dont wanna miss a thing", with full feelings also.
I asked Thban does him feel that CKM is a gay? Thban said he was just substitute Thban as the one he think of.
Hahahahaa!!!
So funny his expressions, actions and singing.
I did not took video yet that time, he was challenging Jay Chou's song,"发如雪". Asked me give him RM10 if he can complete that song. I translated to Thban that he means to love only one even there are a lot of girls.
It was all out of the pronunciation, it is just too funny!!!
I noticed that in his songs list, there are Jay's songs and Leehom's songs...
He was singing "rooftop" by Jay Chou too, and "a thousand miles away"
He was singing with full heart, we all teased him that this is because Lyn was not there, and he misses her much.
*When Lyn was there, he sang Leehom's song and said himself as "male Shila Amzah".*
After that we back to the warong, while playing cards, Lyn came.
CKM teased her that she came late, and used a chance to explain that why he was fetching Lyn yesterday.
Bacause Lyn was locked outside her room the night before yesterday, he waited her to fetch her here.
After lunch I felt suffer cause my pulse rate raised until 96bpm.
I felt sleepy too while watching SNSD video.
Then when they started to go to the houses, I followed too, at least I will have air cond.
They interviewed the houses, I was staying with him in the car and sleep. But he switched on the music, and started to sing. I hinted obviously that I want to sleep, he said, if wanna stay on the car, then I need to hear him singing.
I knew that he was doing a concert for me...
Another task completed.
I saw that Lyn likes to touch him or go near to him, like when they were sitting together, unconsciously she will have herself get nearer to him.
While there was a time she was hitting him because of embarrassment, he was unsatisfied with that and scolded her "Why you hit me, slapped the paper to me like that?" (I guess?? For a girl with the guy she admired, the heart broken.)
He never treat Amu like that, and me also less. (Got la, but I will angry with him and not talking to him like last time the touching hair)
I asked Amu and Thban is he always so gatal, they gave answers not related to the question, while I asked Balqis about it, she said just today he was so gatal.
That time, he was forcing the other girls to go down of the car so that he can stay alone with me. (I guess?? Cause I hope the others get down of the car too)
But the others were just not going, only Lyn went down to see.
So Amu was asking him to treat us Ais Kacang cause the respondent was not in the house. Me also agreed and asking together with Amu (pretending nothing happen in our heart, and I do not know what he is thinking).
He said, he will belanja Balqis but not the other three girls, because Balqis baik.
Someone asked why Balqis baik, I guess again: "Maybe Balqis told me that he sings like this just when I am on the car?" (I saw his face when Balqis told me the answer, he satisfied with that.)
I am not sure that is him acting like that just when I was there, or that is his normal behaviors?
During playing cards, they asked CKM to ask Lyn as a date in prom night.
He just said: "Hi." to Lyn.
I think Lyn's heart must be broken...
And when we reached the kopitiam again, we did not go down, instead he let us stay on his car for air cond. And he sang, I recorded. He was not satisfied with me, he wanted to record "Siew mun gila, Siew Mun gila.." =.=
He was acting that he does not want me to record it, and actually he was enjoying the feeling of me recording it. The other time he knew I was recording lo, he did not have any objection, hehehe~~~
Was him happy because I was less emo and laughed happily with his entertainment and performances?
He planned to bring us to jalan-jalan, in the same time, ML and YY and Thban were asking him to fetch them to collect questionnaires.
I knew what he was thinking, I followed his will (without him talking).
I did not get down from the car. (As if I know what he really thinks in his mind =.=)
Plus, I scared I will get heat stroke under the roof of the warong.
I need air cond.
Although I still asked if Semi need to go. (But I had no intention of geeting down from the car)
Lyn was forced to get down from the car, Iki came and showed me the face to ask me out.
He supported Lyn to couple with CKM.
Lastly I still occupied a seat to have a ride on the car ^.^
The concert continued~~~
I recorded most of his singing.
Perhaps I still feel happy when I look at him, if and only if he likes and happy to see me too.
I was amused, even when I watched back the video.
We reached the kopitiam again, and he sang the last song.
Complete version of "I dont want to miss a thing".
Fiona rushed in to the car for the air cond, and before getting down from the car, she asked CKM to take us for a ride, but he decided to go down. (Hey, petrol very expensive la...)
Then he continued to play cards and rest.
Later he fetched the others to check the houses.
And I do not know if he was hyper too that time.
Lastly, he waited me to go back, actually he can go back first.
And when he gave hint to ask people who wanted to go back early to go to the car, first come first serve basis.
Because someone was holding my camera, so I lost the chance to get into the car.
I stood outside of the car, looked at him with unsatisfied expression from the back of the car, although he might not see that.
And I stayed there waited for long long time.
We went back to my room, they were all gathered to have dinner together.
I went to bath and when I was back, they were talking about the prom.
And I heard that he was asking a girl to be his date. The girl still does not reply him, so pity.
And there is another guy who wanted to ask the girl, and accidentally know that CKM already asked the girl, so that guy did not ask the girl, also very pity.
Both Lyn and Cindy know who is the girl and the guy, but they did not tell me.
Cause they wanted to protect privacy of them gua~~
And there are a lot of coupling date now!!!
Feel excited for the prom night, but I am not going T.T
Jo is sad because the one she likes did not ask her as date, and she will go to the date with someone who admires her~~
I think CKM's meaning of back to the start is to be friends.
I appreciate his efforts trying to make me happy.
I feel most relax and relieve that time and now.
Although what he acted was really same like when we both have no problem, no quarrel, no confession,
He likes to play with me, shows me his dance, his singing, his macho.
To prevent the same incidence happens again, I have to keep everything behind the border.
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