Decision

I had decided.

Instead of finding someone that I like, I should become the one I am finding.

There will be no more in this world, who is exactly fulfill the need for a girl.

Girls are lonely, or can say that wise people are lonely??

Pathetically, there is no admirer outside while I am saying like I have a lot.

I need to tell myself, there is no guy in this world can really treat me nice.

Please give up and stop imagine there will a guy appear in your life and really did the things that you hope for, for you.

Your wishes, people are using as references, and applied on other girls, ok??

Please do not be silly anymore.

Do not be hurt again, I know, I am still imagining.

So, since that day he fetched me, sang to me, till now, how much I got hurt already??

Why still put hope on him??

There is no tear I can cry out for him, he no worth it.

The cruel fact is, he bought dress for her, will fetch her to prom, treat her as date, dance with her, care of her, for that night, even afterward.

Do I still want to attend to the prom??

Can I bear the pain?? Can I bear the heart broken???

Am I thinking to hurt till my blood dry out and that will be the end???

Why am I just can not learn from past experience??

So, please, protect yourself from all guys.

Do not dance with anyone, do not drink any alcohol, do not get too high.

Enjoy the environment, do not lost yourself, be smart.

I should really love my heart, my soul, my mind.

Protect it!!!

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Oh ya, today I met him again at PUMA, he was meeting with his committee.

I think I watched too much of drama.
Please do not care of him anymore.